weird dreams...
i think my brain is ultra-magnetic reciever for nightmares lately.
dream # 1:
i have had this recuring dream for a couple months now...about an old boyfriend. i move to chicago, we have a beautiful relationship, plan a wedding, get married...and everytime i have this dream he get's killed before we kiss at the wedding. the first time he was stabbed by his best man. the second time he was poisioned...he layed on the floor convulsing and cold blood began to drip from his mouth and eyes. the last time i had this dream he lifted the vail off of my face to kiss me...and was shot in the back of the head...his blood and dismembered brain chunks (sorry for the gory graphic image) covered my face and my beautiful dress. i don't know why i keep having these dreams...but it is starting to bother me. when he died in the first two dreams...i was concerned about him...and dropped to the floor crying for help and holding his limp body in my arms. but i am disturded by my reaction in the last dream...because his family rushed up to the platform in concern for him...but i couldn't stop looking at my dress...and thinking selfish thoughts. i don't know.
dream #2:
i had a dream last week in which i was paralized. i was in the middle of no where...lying on the grass...and i kept telling myself to get up but i couldn't. i could look around...but had no rememberance of how i got there. all i could gather is that i fell of of the small cliff overhead. i kept trying to get up...but days passed and i could not move...it began to rain and i thought the raindrops were going to drown me. that's not how i ended up passing though...the rains brought the grass to life...and i was strangled by the grass.
dream #3:
last night i dreamed that the government teamed up with ZPG (zero population growth) and passed a law to euthanize people in order to help control the population on earth. there were random spectrums that determined who would meet death face to face. secret agents would brutally murder people in front of all who surrounded. a few of the spectrums: all unborn children were partial birth aborted (this part was vivid and gruesome...the doctors would give the women memory altering drugs...kill the baby...then tell the women the baby was born dead), everyone in nursing homes...was slowly poisioned, homeless / unemployed people, and christians (since they are "righteous enough" for heaven). it was eerie and seemed so real.
i want these dreams to stop. i'm just glad my mind hasn't been focused around things matt and i have been discussing lately. we have been discussing spiritual entities and the such...creepy stuff. "excorsist" style nightmares would make me go mad.
dream # 1:
i have had this recuring dream for a couple months now...about an old boyfriend. i move to chicago, we have a beautiful relationship, plan a wedding, get married...and everytime i have this dream he get's killed before we kiss at the wedding. the first time he was stabbed by his best man. the second time he was poisioned...he layed on the floor convulsing and cold blood began to drip from his mouth and eyes. the last time i had this dream he lifted the vail off of my face to kiss me...and was shot in the back of the head...his blood and dismembered brain chunks (sorry for the gory graphic image) covered my face and my beautiful dress. i don't know why i keep having these dreams...but it is starting to bother me. when he died in the first two dreams...i was concerned about him...and dropped to the floor crying for help and holding his limp body in my arms. but i am disturded by my reaction in the last dream...because his family rushed up to the platform in concern for him...but i couldn't stop looking at my dress...and thinking selfish thoughts. i don't know.
dream #2:
i had a dream last week in which i was paralized. i was in the middle of no where...lying on the grass...and i kept telling myself to get up but i couldn't. i could look around...but had no rememberance of how i got there. all i could gather is that i fell of of the small cliff overhead. i kept trying to get up...but days passed and i could not move...it began to rain and i thought the raindrops were going to drown me. that's not how i ended up passing though...the rains brought the grass to life...and i was strangled by the grass.
dream #3:
last night i dreamed that the government teamed up with ZPG (zero population growth) and passed a law to euthanize people in order to help control the population on earth. there were random spectrums that determined who would meet death face to face. secret agents would brutally murder people in front of all who surrounded. a few of the spectrums: all unborn children were partial birth aborted (this part was vivid and gruesome...the doctors would give the women memory altering drugs...kill the baby...then tell the women the baby was born dead), everyone in nursing homes...was slowly poisioned, homeless / unemployed people, and christians (since they are "righteous enough" for heaven). it was eerie and seemed so real.
i want these dreams to stop. i'm just glad my mind hasn't been focused around things matt and i have been discussing lately. we have been discussing spiritual entities and the such...creepy stuff. "excorsist" style nightmares would make me go mad.