Hi there and a question?

[saberivojo]

First, I'm so sorry I haven't been around.  Ya'll know why.  I'm working my way through grief and stress.  Hopping on LJ every so often is both depressing and heartening.  I still love SPN but not with the fever I had before.  I think I love the folks on LJ even more. So - I am sorry. Sorry for not talking and posting and joining in.  I just don't

Comments

[sylvanwitch]

You should totally get Max. (He's gorgeous, btw. I love Paints!) You should get him because you need him and because horses are incredibly smart and therapeutic, and why am I even telling you this stuff you already know? Lol!

But I can say that my horse when I was in high school and college, Thai, got me through some pretty devastating times, and the bond we forged together was the stuff of legend. If having Max also means you get to raise your youngest daughter in the horse world, I say, "What are you waiting for?!?" Having Thai and working on a ranch were such powerfully formative experiences for me. I learned about trust, respect, discipline, patience, and yes, of course, heartbreak. But I can't say enough about how valuable those experiences were. They STILL inform my decision-making all these many years later.

If I could afford board and I had the time to give a horse, I'd have one tomorrow.

I say go for it! :-)

[saberivojo]

I am. I am buying him. It feels right, you know? Like sometimes the path may not always be logical but you need to follow it.

Deep breath annnnnd jump!

[chemm80]

Honey, I think you're old enough and experienced to know what you need. And everyone needs a hobby. Why shouldn't that be a horse? You already know you love them, and I know you've made a lot of progress in getting over the fear that your accident instilled.

I imagine your daughter worries about you and feels protective of you, and maybe she even fears for you a little, considering. I have to remind my own grown daughter occasionally that I can take care of myself and figure out what I need, and I haven't even gone through what you have.

But you're a grown woman with a good job-that you got through your own hard work, determination and sacrifice, I might add. If you can afford it and you want it, why not?

[saberivojo]

Ever the voice of wisdom, chem! You are right. My oldest daughter is very protective and yes,she worries about me. But I feel like it is something I need to do.

I'm buying him. I've decided. Now I hope it's the right decision!

[lavinialavender]

*hugs* Good to hear from you! I understand not getting much comfort from SPN these days, but I'm glad it hasn't affected your feelings for the fandom community.

It sounds to me like you've already done the math and budgeted it out -- like you said, if you get this new horse, you can afford it. And I believe you when you talk about how much it means to you, how much you want it. I mean, it's not a new passion, as you said, you've loved horses all your life, and you have the respect for them to avoid injury again.

[saberivojo]

It is my passion and has always been. Still, I hope that I am not only doing what I want but what I need.

I'm so ready for this huge step!

[leelust]

You are selfish :) And that's exactly what you need to be! Think of yourself too! If you feel like you need it and you can afford it - buy it! Your older daughter just worries about you cause of previous experience with horses. But if you feel ready to put it past you (and it looks like you're ready) dooo eeeeettt!!!!!

[saberivojo]

I am being selfish and I am not normally do that. Yet, there is some freedom in selfishness. I can't wait till he joins my humble home!

[leelust]

Being selfish all the time is bad but being selfish for once to help yourself to deal with awful stress? To help yourself to feel better? How's that can be a bad thing?
I hope for new pics :)

[saberivojo]

I am doing this! I'm excited, scared and so very happy. Happy and me haven't touched base lately so I'm pretty stoked. My big girl will come around...just like you said.