Our Fate Made by Mistakes - 5
Author: Nara
Pairing: YutoYama, OkaYama, AriJima, AriYama (friendship), OkaNoo, TaDaiki
Genre: BL, Romance, School Life, Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryosuke is in love with the school prince Keito. He has kept his feeling for over a year. Keito’s best friend, Yuto is the second prince and Ryosuke find him a very troublesome guy. With his best friend’s encouragement, Ryosuke overcome his fear and decided to confess to Keito but with a simple mistake, his life turns upside down.
First Mistake I Second Mistake I Third Mistake I Fourth Mistake
~5~
“Nakajima…”
Again, Ryosuke called Yuto’s name in his soft voice. How many times he chanted that name? Yuto already lost the count. His heart melt every time he heard Ryosuke called his name and somehow it doesn’t seem enough for him. He wants to look into Ryosuke’s eyes when he calls his name. How will they look like? Will they look different than how he usually saw them when he called him all this time? Full of hatred and despise. He wants to know. He wants to see. Slowly, Yuto loosen up the hug enough to palming Ryosuke’s cheek and make him look straight into his eyes.
“Now…call my name again…” he demands in his thought. His thumb is carefully wiping the trace of Ryosuke’s tears.
Ryosuke’s hands are still firmly wrapped around Yuto’s waist. He has no intention to let him go. His heart hasn’t calm down from the crazy beat but to have those eyes staring at him deeply makes his heart is going to explode. His cheek where Yuto’s hand is touching feels so hot. Ryosuke can’t avert his eyes from Yuto’s stare even though he feels embarrassed. Yuto’s gaze somehow makes him paralyzed. There’s something unusual with those eyes. They’re not empty and icy cold like he always saw. They look…beautiful.
“Nakajima…?” the moment Ryosuke called his name, Yuto smiles gently makes his heart skip a beat. This is the first time he ever saw Yuto smile like that.
“Will I get to see him smile like this always?” Ryosuke wonders, why he has such wish.
Yuto smiled because finally he gets to hear his name slipped out from Ryosuke’s lips. He was waiting for it like forever. Indeed, he didn’t see hatred and despise in those brown orbs. Indeed, they way he looks at him is different and that makes him feel satisfied.
“Satisfied? No…it’s more like…happy?”
Yuto’s eyes then travel down to Ryosuke’s pink lips. His thumb is unconsciously rubbing against the lower lip. Ryosuke lowered down his eyes and parted his lips a bit. He doesn’t know why but he likes the sensation of Yuto’s thumb on his lips. He looks back at the taller only to land his sight on Yuto’s lips. He never knew those thin lips could look this seducing. Both of them are caught in the moment. They forget their surrounding, forget who they are. Ryosuke forget how he hates this guy and Yuto forget how he treats Ryosuke as his toy, his servant. They are too drowned into each other eyes until they didn’t realize their gap is getting closer and closer. Yuto is leaning down and his gaze only focusing on Ryosuke’s lips. He wants to kiss him so badly and he is not the only one who feels that way. Ryosuke is raising his chin little by little, wanting for those lips to meet his and their gap only a breath away…
A sudden ringtone from Yuto’s pocket make them flinch in surprised and snapped back into reality. They break apart immediately and dumbfounded for a while. Yuto quickly takes out his cell phone and saw Keito’s name on the screen.
“Yuto! Where the hell are you?? Did you found Yamada-kun?” Keito yelled and Yuto can imagine how worried he looks right now.
“Yeah, I found him.”
“Really? Yokatta~ everyone is worry about him.”
“The battle...already ended right?” said Yuto disappointedly and Ryosuke’s eyes widened in shock. He totally forgot about the battle of the band.
“Yeah… those audiences look so disappointed when I told them that we withdraw from this competition” Keito sighs.
“We lost without competing ne” Yuto chuckles but his eyes obviously show sadness. Ryosuke’s chest feel like it was stabbed by a knife. They lost the battle because of his fault and guilt piling up inside him.
“I feel bad toward you guys.”
“Nah~ everyone understands. Beside, your lover is more important than this. We still have next year. Since it will be our last year, we should do something awesome.”
“Thanks, Keito” Yuto closes his cell phone’s lid and put it back inside his pocket, staring down at the floor.
“Gomen…gomenasai…ore no sei de…” Ryosuke voice is shaking and his eyes are teary again.
“Just forget it. There’s nothing we can do” Yuto let out a disappointed sigh.
“How you ended up here with those thugs?” Yuto tries to change the subject. He doesn’t want to see Ryosuke cry again.
“I beat up two of them yesterday so they want a revenge I guess” Ryosuke answered while wiping his tears.
“Huh?? Why did you do that?”
“They were bullying a girl. I can’t just stand there and watch.”
And they start to fight again, forgetting that they almost kiss each other a while ago.
“So you beat them up and acted like a hero?”
“Why? Is there a problem with that?”
“They’re delinquents. You think they gonna let you go just like that?”
“I had a bad mood yesterday. I need to let it out.”
“Can you think first before you do something?”
“Tch. Whose fault is that?” Ryosuke mumbles.
“Huh?”
“Nothing. How did you find me anyway?”
“I tracked your GPS. Luckily I got the location before I totally lost the connection” Yuto is looking around the floor and found Ryosuke’s broken cell phone.
“What? When did you-“ Ryosuke remembered that he handed over his cell phone to Yuto when he asked his number. Yuto must have turned on his GPS without he noticed it.
“You jerk! Who give you permission to do that?”
“Well, this jerk who save your ass!”
Ryosuke lost his word. That’s true. If he didn’t turn on his GPS, he will never find him here and save him.
“A-about that…a-ariga-tou…” Ryosuke blushed. In his entire life, he never expects that he will say ‘thank you’ to this guy.
“Let’s go. Everyone is worry about you.”
“Un.”
………
Yuto and Ryosuke walk into the music room and everybody are waiting including Daiki.
“Yamada-kun!!”
“Yama-chan!!”
Everyone is running toward Ryosuke and surround him. Seeing their faces wearing worried look makes Ryosuke feels touched.
“Yama-chan! I’m so worried you know. You didn’t come and I can’t get through to your phone. After Keito-kun announced that they want to withdraw, I quickly meet him and they told me that Nakajima-kun is trying to find you. Are you okay? You’re not hurt anywhere?” Daiki examines his best friend form head to toe.
“I’m fine, really” Ryosuke smiles and Daiki sighs in relief.
“Minna, honto ni sumimasen!” Ryosuke bows.
“It’s okay, Yamada-kun. Your safety is more important” said Keito.
“Sou, sou. We are friends deshou? We should help each other” Yabu added.
“We were more worried about you than the battle” said Hikaru.
“Dakara, you don’t have to feel sorry toward us” said Inoo.
“Minna~” Ryosuke feels grateful to have wonderful friends like them.
“N-Nakajima-kun, a-arigatou” Daiki feels nervous as this is the first time he ever speak to the person he loves.
“Don’t sweat it. You are?”
“A-Arioka Daiki desu. Yama-chan no tomodachi.”
“Sou ka. You must have been worried a lot ne, Arioka-kun” Yuto curves a gentle smile that makes Daiki’s heart thumping faster.
“U-un. But when I know you were trying to find him, it put my heart at ease a bit. I…I know I can trust you” said Daiki.
“You’re a good friend” Yuto pats Daiki’s head makes the shorter flushes in red. Ryosuke frowns as his chest feels tight all of the sudden.
“He never act all sweet in front of me like that! Huh? Wait, why should I care anyway?” Ryosuke shrugs off his thought.
………
Ryosuke and Daiki walk into their classroom. It’s already empty as students have went back home. Ryosuke drop his butt onto his seat and let out a long sigh. Too many things happened today and he is really tired.
“Yama-chan, here. I kept this for you” Daiki passed Ryosuke his uchiwa that he asked him to hold it while he went to Student’s Council room earlier.
“At the end, you couldn’t tell Keito the truth” to be honest, Daiki also feel disappointed.
Ryosuke looks at his uchiwa written “I love you” on this site and the other side of the uchiwa is Keito’s picture. While he is staring at Keito’s picture suddenly Yuto’s face appeared in his mind. He remembered Yuto’s warmth wrapped around him, how he kept chanting Yuto’s name and the moment when they were almost kiss.
“Gyaah!!” Ryosuke ruffles his hair with his both hands.
“What the hell was happening back there? Why am I acting so weird? This is ridiculously insane!”
“Y-Yama-chan, are you okay?” Daiki becomes panic to see Ryosuke suddenly screamed like that.
“You must feel so frustrated right now” Daiki patting Ryosuke’s back.
“Of course I am. Finally I have courage to tell Keito the truth but because of what happened today, I didn’t have chance to tell him. I just want him to know that he is the one that I truly love. I don’t want to be Nakajima’s servant anymore” Ryosuke feels scared. If he continues being Yuto’s servant, he might become weirder. He needs to escape.
“Heh~ so you were planning to tell Keito the truth, huh?” suddenly, Ryosuke heard a familiar voice. He turns to his side and saw Yuto is leaning against the door while crossing his arms.
“N-Nakajima!” Ryosuke’s eyes widened and he is trembling. Yuto must have heard everything.
“W-what are you doing here?” he asked nervously.
“I came to return this” Yuto throws Ryosuke’s cell phone onto the desk near him. Yuto picked it up from the store room before and it still can be fixed but he forgot to give it to him while they were in the music room and so he came to his classroom.
“Arioka-kun, can you give us a minute?” Yuto asked while smiling.
“U-un. Yama-chan, I’m going home first okay?” Daiki takes his bag and walking out from the classroom. He bows a little to Yuto before he goes.
“Dai-chan!” Ryosuke doesn’t want Daiki to leave him alone actually. Not in this situation. While Daiki is walking away from his classroom, his lips are curving a smile. He knows he shouldn’t feel this way, but he can’t help it. He feels happy that now Yuto knows everything.
The classroom filled with silence. Ryosuke nervously avert his eyes to Yuto and he saw the taller is staring at him coldly, sending shivers down to his spine.
“So, you’ve tired of being my servant, huh?” said Yuto while stepping into the classroom.
“You want to tell Keito that he’s the one you actually love, not me?” Yuto is circling Ryosuke.
“You want to tell him that we were just pretending to be lovers so you can get close to him?” Yuto is standing in front of Ryosuke while inserting his hands into his pockets.
“Then what will happen next? Keito will feel so happy and with those sparkling eyes of his he will ask you to go out with him? Or, he will feel disgust and ask you to not show your face in front of him ever again.”
Ryosuke gulped his saliva. Yuto is being scary.
“Answer me, Yamada Ryosuke.”
“I…I don’t…care…w-what will happen next. I just…want him to know…my feelings and I…I just want to end this” Ryosuke answered with trembling voice. Yuto clenches his teeth in anger but deep inside, he’s not sure whether he feels angry because Ryosuke was planning to tell Keito the truth behind his back or because Ryosuke wants to end their fake relationships just like that. However, Yuto doesn’t give a damn whichever is it. The most important is his pride.
“If that’s what you want, so be it. But I’m the one who will end this thing between us using my own way. From now on, you are nothing but a stranger to me, you got that?” said Yuto before he walks away and leave Ryosuke behind, all alone.
“H-ha ha ha…I’ve finally said it” Ryosuke chuckles awkwardly while clenching his bangs.
“I don’t have to be his servant anymore. I’m finally free. This is all I ever wanted. Yeah, I want this. So tears…please stop flowing…”
********
Daiki looks at Ryosuke’s empty seat beside him. The homeroom teacher is taking the class attendance and Ryosuke’s turn to be called is getting nearer but he still hasn’t show up until now.
“Yamada-kun?” the homeroom teacher called but no one answer.
“Yamada-kun?” again, the teacher called.
“Hai!” Ryosuke is standing at the entrance while panting so hard.
“Yamada-kun, you’re late.”
“Honto ni sumimasen deshita” Ryosuke bows.
“Hm, take your seat” the teacher said before he start calling the rest of the names.
“Yama-chan, what happened? You never late before” Daiki asked after Ryosuke took his seat.
“I…I woke up late, hahaha~” Ryosuke laughs awkwardly.
It’s a lie. He couldn’t tell Daiki the actual reason why he came late today. He couldn’t tell that he was spacing out while he was walking and without he realized it, he already standing in front of Yuto’s house. Picking up Yuto to school every day has become like his routine for these past few months and when suddenly he doesn’t need to do that anymore instead of feeling relief, he feels strange. Before Yuto come out from the house, Ryosuke ran away as fast as he could. During the lesson, Ryosuke can’t really focus as his mind went to somewhere else. Yuto said the he will use his own way to end their fake relationship and it makes him nervous. What will he do? This question keep repeating in Ryosuke’s thought.
………
Ryosuke now is standing in front of music room. He feels so nervous to open the door. Honestly, he is not yet ready to face Yuto after what happened yesterday but he knew he can’t run away from it. Ryosuke gulped his saliva and reaches out his hand to the doorknob. Before he could grab the doorknob, the door is suddenly opened from the inside and he gasps as he saw Yuto before his eyes. Yuto looks composed as if he already forgotten what happened between them yesterday.
“Yamada-kun~” Keito grabs Ryosuke’s wrist and drags him into the room.
“Yamada-kun, be strong okay?” Keito places his hands on Ryosuke’s shoulders and he looks worried.
“Eh?” Ryosuke tilts his head in confuse wondering what is he talking about.
“You poor thing” Hikaru comes closer and hugs Ryosuke makes him become more confuse.
“I don’t know why Yuto broke up with you but we all here by your side so don’t be sad okay?” said Yabu while patting his head. Ryosuke clenches his fist. He understands now. So this is what he means by using his own way, by making him feels humiliated. This is so unfair. He looks at Yuto who is still standing at the door while facing his back toward him. He bites his lower lip as anger built up inside him. He too has his pride.
“Don’t worry. I’m not sad. In fact, I feel relief that he broke up with me” said Ryosuke while smiling and everyone is looking at each other, looking all confuse.
“I never was in love with him anyway. The one that I love is Keito!” Ryosuke burst out. His eyes are looking at Yuto’s back but not Keito. Rather than confessing, it’s more like he’s letting out his anger. Hikaru, Yabu and Inoo are stunned, including Keito. They are all speechless.
Yuto clenches his fist. His composed face changed into irritated look. A sharp pain stabbing his chest the moment Ryosuke spit out the truth. He doesn’t want to hear it anymore. It’s suffocates him to be here any longer so he walks away without turning back. Ryosuke watches Yuto steps away from the door with sad eyes. Finally, he told the truth and he supposed to feel good about it. But why his heart feels heavier than ever?
Keito is staring at Ryosuke without blinking. Just now, he heard it from Ryosuke’s mouth that he loves him. However, he was only looking at Yuto all the time even now, he still looking at the door, where Yuto was standing. Keito curves a smile. Earlier, when Yuto told them that he broke up with Ryosuke he saw pain in his eyes. Even though he doesn’t understand much of what actually happened between them but they are obviously have feelings toward each other.
“Mataku…these two are really troublesome. I guess there’s no other way. I need to play cupid in this situation, fufufu~” he grins.
“Yamada-kun, since you’re in love with me, let’s go out together ne?” said Keito and Ryosuke’s eyes widened in disbelieve. Keito walks closer to Ryosuke and wraps his hands around him.
“I’ll treat you better than Yuto” said Keito while smiling. He have plan in his mind. He understands Yuto more than anyone else so he knows how to provoke him. Meanwhile, Ryosuke is dumfounded in Keito’s arms. This is like a dream comes true. Keito received his feelings and finally he can have him by his side. He should be overwhelmed by happiness right now. He should reply Keito’s hug and embrace him tightly but why his hands cannot move an inch? Why it is not happiness that he feels but only mess up emotions that he cannot describe? Keito is the one who embracing him now but why Yuto’s warmth that he could only remember?
Yabu is stepping toward Inoo who seem stunned and pats his shoulder. “I’ve told you before right? You should confess to him before it’s too late” he whispers and Inoo is trying to hold his tears. He made a terrible mistake. All this time Keito is always before his eyes so he took him for granted. He thought it is okay if he doesn’t confess yet because there is still time. Being in the same band, they will always be together but he’s all wrong.
Not knowing Keito’s actual plan, Inoo thought that he had his heart broken.
………
Daiki is stepping up the stairs to the rooftop. As usual he’s going to have his bento together with Takaki but he has to submit his class exercise books to teacher’s office so he asked Daiki to go first. While he’s stepping up the stairs one by one, he keeps thinking of his best friend. Keito must have known the truth by now and he worried what happened to Ryosuke after he told Keito his feelings. Shouldn’t he be by his best friend’s side during that time? But Ryosuke told him that he can handle it for himself. Daiki shrugged and open up the door to the rooftop. He is walking toward his usual spot where Takaki and he always have their bentos but then his feet stopped. He smiles because from far, he saw Yuto is sleeping at his spot. He takes out his cell phone and dialing Takaki’s number.
“Takaki-kun?”
“Hai, Arioka-kun. Doushita no?” Takaki answered from the other line.
”Gomen, I’m not going to rooftop today. I’m having my lunch with Yama-chan today” he lied.
“Sou ka? Ii yo. I will hang out with my other friends.”
“Jya ne.”
“Jya.”
Daiki put his cell phone inside his pocket. He knows Takaki will not come to the rooftop if he isn’t there. He walks closer to Yuto who is sleeping while leaning his back against the wall and then he kneels beside him. His eyes are travelling at every inch of Yuto’s face. This is the first time he ever saw him this close. All those feelings he has been contained inside him is going to burst out. He can’t control himself anymore.
“Nakajima-kun, shiteru? I’ve been in love with you this whole time” Daiki brushes aside Yuto’s bangs and Yuto who is not really sleeping open up his eyes but Daiki didn’t surprised.
“Forget about Yama-chan and take me instead. I don’t mind if you treat me like a toy as long as I could stay by your side” Daiki caressing Yuto’s cheek softly. Yuto only looks at him with cold eyes and emotionless face but Daiki doesn’t care at all. He climbs on Yuto’s lap.
“I’ll make you forget everything” Daiki meet his forehead with Yuto’s.
“And I’ll never leave your side until you decided to throw me away” Daiki cupped Yuto’s cheeks and kisses Yuto’s bangs. The taller doesn’t move at all and only stares at the guy before his eyes. He obviously can see how foolishly he’s in love with him. New toy? That’s not a bad idea. This guy can be useful to him. Daiki’s lips travelling down to Yuto’s right eyebrow. Yuto closes his eyes and just let Daiki kiss him. He can feel Daiki’s lips touch his both eyes, his nose, his cheeks and it is getting lower. He can do whatever he wants to him. He doesn’t care or more like, he doesn’t care about anything anymore.
“If he can make me forget this annoying pain in my chest, I’ll use him.”
“If he can make me forget about Yamada Ryosuke, I’ll use him…I’ll use him…”
A/n: don’t get mad, it hurt me too when I’m writing this chapter (- -“) but a happy ending that comes from the pain is more beautiful, no?
I saw Yuto’s pic in Wink Up scan wearing a gray suit and his hair is shorter. That is his image for his new dorama deshou? aah~ he looks like a young, hot salaryman~ XD
Pairing: YutoYama, OkaYama, AriJima, AriYama (friendship), OkaNoo, TaDaiki
Genre: BL, Romance, School Life, Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryosuke is in love with the school prince Keito. He has kept his feeling for over a year. Keito’s best friend, Yuto is the second prince and Ryosuke find him a very troublesome guy. With his best friend’s encouragement, Ryosuke overcome his fear and decided to confess to Keito but with a simple mistake, his life turns upside down.
First Mistake I Second Mistake I Third Mistake I Fourth Mistake
~5~
“Nakajima…”
Again, Ryosuke called Yuto’s name in his soft voice. How many times he chanted that name? Yuto already lost the count. His heart melt every time he heard Ryosuke called his name and somehow it doesn’t seem enough for him. He wants to look into Ryosuke’s eyes when he calls his name. How will they look like? Will they look different than how he usually saw them when he called him all this time? Full of hatred and despise. He wants to know. He wants to see. Slowly, Yuto loosen up the hug enough to palming Ryosuke’s cheek and make him look straight into his eyes.
“Now…call my name again…” he demands in his thought. His thumb is carefully wiping the trace of Ryosuke’s tears.
Ryosuke’s hands are still firmly wrapped around Yuto’s waist. He has no intention to let him go. His heart hasn’t calm down from the crazy beat but to have those eyes staring at him deeply makes his heart is going to explode. His cheek where Yuto’s hand is touching feels so hot. Ryosuke can’t avert his eyes from Yuto’s stare even though he feels embarrassed. Yuto’s gaze somehow makes him paralyzed. There’s something unusual with those eyes. They’re not empty and icy cold like he always saw. They look…beautiful.
“Nakajima…?” the moment Ryosuke called his name, Yuto smiles gently makes his heart skip a beat. This is the first time he ever saw Yuto smile like that.
“Will I get to see him smile like this always?” Ryosuke wonders, why he has such wish.
Yuto smiled because finally he gets to hear his name slipped out from Ryosuke’s lips. He was waiting for it like forever. Indeed, he didn’t see hatred and despise in those brown orbs. Indeed, they way he looks at him is different and that makes him feel satisfied.
“Satisfied? No…it’s more like…happy?”
Yuto’s eyes then travel down to Ryosuke’s pink lips. His thumb is unconsciously rubbing against the lower lip. Ryosuke lowered down his eyes and parted his lips a bit. He doesn’t know why but he likes the sensation of Yuto’s thumb on his lips. He looks back at the taller only to land his sight on Yuto’s lips. He never knew those thin lips could look this seducing. Both of them are caught in the moment. They forget their surrounding, forget who they are. Ryosuke forget how he hates this guy and Yuto forget how he treats Ryosuke as his toy, his servant. They are too drowned into each other eyes until they didn’t realize their gap is getting closer and closer. Yuto is leaning down and his gaze only focusing on Ryosuke’s lips. He wants to kiss him so badly and he is not the only one who feels that way. Ryosuke is raising his chin little by little, wanting for those lips to meet his and their gap only a breath away…
A sudden ringtone from Yuto’s pocket make them flinch in surprised and snapped back into reality. They break apart immediately and dumbfounded for a while. Yuto quickly takes out his cell phone and saw Keito’s name on the screen.
“Yuto! Where the hell are you?? Did you found Yamada-kun?” Keito yelled and Yuto can imagine how worried he looks right now.
“Yeah, I found him.”
“Really? Yokatta~ everyone is worry about him.”
“The battle...already ended right?” said Yuto disappointedly and Ryosuke’s eyes widened in shock. He totally forgot about the battle of the band.
“Yeah… those audiences look so disappointed when I told them that we withdraw from this competition” Keito sighs.
“We lost without competing ne” Yuto chuckles but his eyes obviously show sadness. Ryosuke’s chest feel like it was stabbed by a knife. They lost the battle because of his fault and guilt piling up inside him.
“I feel bad toward you guys.”
“Nah~ everyone understands. Beside, your lover is more important than this. We still have next year. Since it will be our last year, we should do something awesome.”
“Thanks, Keito” Yuto closes his cell phone’s lid and put it back inside his pocket, staring down at the floor.
“Gomen…gomenasai…ore no sei de…” Ryosuke voice is shaking and his eyes are teary again.
“Just forget it. There’s nothing we can do” Yuto let out a disappointed sigh.
“How you ended up here with those thugs?” Yuto tries to change the subject. He doesn’t want to see Ryosuke cry again.
“I beat up two of them yesterday so they want a revenge I guess” Ryosuke answered while wiping his tears.
“Huh?? Why did you do that?”
“They were bullying a girl. I can’t just stand there and watch.”
And they start to fight again, forgetting that they almost kiss each other a while ago.
“So you beat them up and acted like a hero?”
“Why? Is there a problem with that?”
“They’re delinquents. You think they gonna let you go just like that?”
“I had a bad mood yesterday. I need to let it out.”
“Can you think first before you do something?”
“Tch. Whose fault is that?” Ryosuke mumbles.
“Huh?”
“Nothing. How did you find me anyway?”
“I tracked your GPS. Luckily I got the location before I totally lost the connection” Yuto is looking around the floor and found Ryosuke’s broken cell phone.
“What? When did you-“ Ryosuke remembered that he handed over his cell phone to Yuto when he asked his number. Yuto must have turned on his GPS without he noticed it.
“You jerk! Who give you permission to do that?”
“Well, this jerk who save your ass!”
Ryosuke lost his word. That’s true. If he didn’t turn on his GPS, he will never find him here and save him.
“A-about that…a-ariga-tou…” Ryosuke blushed. In his entire life, he never expects that he will say ‘thank you’ to this guy.
“Let’s go. Everyone is worry about you.”
“Un.”
………
Yuto and Ryosuke walk into the music room and everybody are waiting including Daiki.
“Yamada-kun!!”
“Yama-chan!!”
Everyone is running toward Ryosuke and surround him. Seeing their faces wearing worried look makes Ryosuke feels touched.
“Yama-chan! I’m so worried you know. You didn’t come and I can’t get through to your phone. After Keito-kun announced that they want to withdraw, I quickly meet him and they told me that Nakajima-kun is trying to find you. Are you okay? You’re not hurt anywhere?” Daiki examines his best friend form head to toe.
“I’m fine, really” Ryosuke smiles and Daiki sighs in relief.
“Minna, honto ni sumimasen!” Ryosuke bows.
“It’s okay, Yamada-kun. Your safety is more important” said Keito.
“Sou, sou. We are friends deshou? We should help each other” Yabu added.
“We were more worried about you than the battle” said Hikaru.
“Dakara, you don’t have to feel sorry toward us” said Inoo.
“Minna~” Ryosuke feels grateful to have wonderful friends like them.
“N-Nakajima-kun, a-arigatou” Daiki feels nervous as this is the first time he ever speak to the person he loves.
“Don’t sweat it. You are?”
“A-Arioka Daiki desu. Yama-chan no tomodachi.”
“Sou ka. You must have been worried a lot ne, Arioka-kun” Yuto curves a gentle smile that makes Daiki’s heart thumping faster.
“U-un. But when I know you were trying to find him, it put my heart at ease a bit. I…I know I can trust you” said Daiki.
“You’re a good friend” Yuto pats Daiki’s head makes the shorter flushes in red. Ryosuke frowns as his chest feels tight all of the sudden.
“He never act all sweet in front of me like that! Huh? Wait, why should I care anyway?” Ryosuke shrugs off his thought.
………
Ryosuke and Daiki walk into their classroom. It’s already empty as students have went back home. Ryosuke drop his butt onto his seat and let out a long sigh. Too many things happened today and he is really tired.
“Yama-chan, here. I kept this for you” Daiki passed Ryosuke his uchiwa that he asked him to hold it while he went to Student’s Council room earlier.
“At the end, you couldn’t tell Keito the truth” to be honest, Daiki also feel disappointed.
Ryosuke looks at his uchiwa written “I love you” on this site and the other side of the uchiwa is Keito’s picture. While he is staring at Keito’s picture suddenly Yuto’s face appeared in his mind. He remembered Yuto’s warmth wrapped around him, how he kept chanting Yuto’s name and the moment when they were almost kiss.
“Gyaah!!” Ryosuke ruffles his hair with his both hands.
“What the hell was happening back there? Why am I acting so weird? This is ridiculously insane!”
“Y-Yama-chan, are you okay?” Daiki becomes panic to see Ryosuke suddenly screamed like that.
“You must feel so frustrated right now” Daiki patting Ryosuke’s back.
“Of course I am. Finally I have courage to tell Keito the truth but because of what happened today, I didn’t have chance to tell him. I just want him to know that he is the one that I truly love. I don’t want to be Nakajima’s servant anymore” Ryosuke feels scared. If he continues being Yuto’s servant, he might become weirder. He needs to escape.
“Heh~ so you were planning to tell Keito the truth, huh?” suddenly, Ryosuke heard a familiar voice. He turns to his side and saw Yuto is leaning against the door while crossing his arms.
“N-Nakajima!” Ryosuke’s eyes widened and he is trembling. Yuto must have heard everything.
“W-what are you doing here?” he asked nervously.
“I came to return this” Yuto throws Ryosuke’s cell phone onto the desk near him. Yuto picked it up from the store room before and it still can be fixed but he forgot to give it to him while they were in the music room and so he came to his classroom.
“Arioka-kun, can you give us a minute?” Yuto asked while smiling.
“U-un. Yama-chan, I’m going home first okay?” Daiki takes his bag and walking out from the classroom. He bows a little to Yuto before he goes.
“Dai-chan!” Ryosuke doesn’t want Daiki to leave him alone actually. Not in this situation. While Daiki is walking away from his classroom, his lips are curving a smile. He knows he shouldn’t feel this way, but he can’t help it. He feels happy that now Yuto knows everything.
The classroom filled with silence. Ryosuke nervously avert his eyes to Yuto and he saw the taller is staring at him coldly, sending shivers down to his spine.
“So, you’ve tired of being my servant, huh?” said Yuto while stepping into the classroom.
“You want to tell Keito that he’s the one you actually love, not me?” Yuto is circling Ryosuke.
“You want to tell him that we were just pretending to be lovers so you can get close to him?” Yuto is standing in front of Ryosuke while inserting his hands into his pockets.
“Then what will happen next? Keito will feel so happy and with those sparkling eyes of his he will ask you to go out with him? Or, he will feel disgust and ask you to not show your face in front of him ever again.”
Ryosuke gulped his saliva. Yuto is being scary.
“Answer me, Yamada Ryosuke.”
“I…I don’t…care…w-what will happen next. I just…want him to know…my feelings and I…I just want to end this” Ryosuke answered with trembling voice. Yuto clenches his teeth in anger but deep inside, he’s not sure whether he feels angry because Ryosuke was planning to tell Keito the truth behind his back or because Ryosuke wants to end their fake relationships just like that. However, Yuto doesn’t give a damn whichever is it. The most important is his pride.
“If that’s what you want, so be it. But I’m the one who will end this thing between us using my own way. From now on, you are nothing but a stranger to me, you got that?” said Yuto before he walks away and leave Ryosuke behind, all alone.
“H-ha ha ha…I’ve finally said it” Ryosuke chuckles awkwardly while clenching his bangs.
“I don’t have to be his servant anymore. I’m finally free. This is all I ever wanted. Yeah, I want this. So tears…please stop flowing…”
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Daiki looks at Ryosuke’s empty seat beside him. The homeroom teacher is taking the class attendance and Ryosuke’s turn to be called is getting nearer but he still hasn’t show up until now.
“Yamada-kun?” the homeroom teacher called but no one answer.
“Yamada-kun?” again, the teacher called.
“Hai!” Ryosuke is standing at the entrance while panting so hard.
“Yamada-kun, you’re late.”
“Honto ni sumimasen deshita” Ryosuke bows.
“Hm, take your seat” the teacher said before he start calling the rest of the names.
“Yama-chan, what happened? You never late before” Daiki asked after Ryosuke took his seat.
“I…I woke up late, hahaha~” Ryosuke laughs awkwardly.
It’s a lie. He couldn’t tell Daiki the actual reason why he came late today. He couldn’t tell that he was spacing out while he was walking and without he realized it, he already standing in front of Yuto’s house. Picking up Yuto to school every day has become like his routine for these past few months and when suddenly he doesn’t need to do that anymore instead of feeling relief, he feels strange. Before Yuto come out from the house, Ryosuke ran away as fast as he could. During the lesson, Ryosuke can’t really focus as his mind went to somewhere else. Yuto said the he will use his own way to end their fake relationship and it makes him nervous. What will he do? This question keep repeating in Ryosuke’s thought.
………
Ryosuke now is standing in front of music room. He feels so nervous to open the door. Honestly, he is not yet ready to face Yuto after what happened yesterday but he knew he can’t run away from it. Ryosuke gulped his saliva and reaches out his hand to the doorknob. Before he could grab the doorknob, the door is suddenly opened from the inside and he gasps as he saw Yuto before his eyes. Yuto looks composed as if he already forgotten what happened between them yesterday.
“Yamada-kun~” Keito grabs Ryosuke’s wrist and drags him into the room.
“Yamada-kun, be strong okay?” Keito places his hands on Ryosuke’s shoulders and he looks worried.
“Eh?” Ryosuke tilts his head in confuse wondering what is he talking about.
“You poor thing” Hikaru comes closer and hugs Ryosuke makes him become more confuse.
“I don’t know why Yuto broke up with you but we all here by your side so don’t be sad okay?” said Yabu while patting his head. Ryosuke clenches his fist. He understands now. So this is what he means by using his own way, by making him feels humiliated. This is so unfair. He looks at Yuto who is still standing at the door while facing his back toward him. He bites his lower lip as anger built up inside him. He too has his pride.
“Don’t worry. I’m not sad. In fact, I feel relief that he broke up with me” said Ryosuke while smiling and everyone is looking at each other, looking all confuse.
“I never was in love with him anyway. The one that I love is Keito!” Ryosuke burst out. His eyes are looking at Yuto’s back but not Keito. Rather than confessing, it’s more like he’s letting out his anger. Hikaru, Yabu and Inoo are stunned, including Keito. They are all speechless.
Yuto clenches his fist. His composed face changed into irritated look. A sharp pain stabbing his chest the moment Ryosuke spit out the truth. He doesn’t want to hear it anymore. It’s suffocates him to be here any longer so he walks away without turning back. Ryosuke watches Yuto steps away from the door with sad eyes. Finally, he told the truth and he supposed to feel good about it. But why his heart feels heavier than ever?
Keito is staring at Ryosuke without blinking. Just now, he heard it from Ryosuke’s mouth that he loves him. However, he was only looking at Yuto all the time even now, he still looking at the door, where Yuto was standing. Keito curves a smile. Earlier, when Yuto told them that he broke up with Ryosuke he saw pain in his eyes. Even though he doesn’t understand much of what actually happened between them but they are obviously have feelings toward each other.
“Mataku…these two are really troublesome. I guess there’s no other way. I need to play cupid in this situation, fufufu~” he grins.
“Yamada-kun, since you’re in love with me, let’s go out together ne?” said Keito and Ryosuke’s eyes widened in disbelieve. Keito walks closer to Ryosuke and wraps his hands around him.
“I’ll treat you better than Yuto” said Keito while smiling. He have plan in his mind. He understands Yuto more than anyone else so he knows how to provoke him. Meanwhile, Ryosuke is dumfounded in Keito’s arms. This is like a dream comes true. Keito received his feelings and finally he can have him by his side. He should be overwhelmed by happiness right now. He should reply Keito’s hug and embrace him tightly but why his hands cannot move an inch? Why it is not happiness that he feels but only mess up emotions that he cannot describe? Keito is the one who embracing him now but why Yuto’s warmth that he could only remember?
Yabu is stepping toward Inoo who seem stunned and pats his shoulder. “I’ve told you before right? You should confess to him before it’s too late” he whispers and Inoo is trying to hold his tears. He made a terrible mistake. All this time Keito is always before his eyes so he took him for granted. He thought it is okay if he doesn’t confess yet because there is still time. Being in the same band, they will always be together but he’s all wrong.
Not knowing Keito’s actual plan, Inoo thought that he had his heart broken.
………
Daiki is stepping up the stairs to the rooftop. As usual he’s going to have his bento together with Takaki but he has to submit his class exercise books to teacher’s office so he asked Daiki to go first. While he’s stepping up the stairs one by one, he keeps thinking of his best friend. Keito must have known the truth by now and he worried what happened to Ryosuke after he told Keito his feelings. Shouldn’t he be by his best friend’s side during that time? But Ryosuke told him that he can handle it for himself. Daiki shrugged and open up the door to the rooftop. He is walking toward his usual spot where Takaki and he always have their bentos but then his feet stopped. He smiles because from far, he saw Yuto is sleeping at his spot. He takes out his cell phone and dialing Takaki’s number.
“Takaki-kun?”
“Hai, Arioka-kun. Doushita no?” Takaki answered from the other line.
”Gomen, I’m not going to rooftop today. I’m having my lunch with Yama-chan today” he lied.
“Sou ka? Ii yo. I will hang out with my other friends.”
“Jya ne.”
“Jya.”
Daiki put his cell phone inside his pocket. He knows Takaki will not come to the rooftop if he isn’t there. He walks closer to Yuto who is sleeping while leaning his back against the wall and then he kneels beside him. His eyes are travelling at every inch of Yuto’s face. This is the first time he ever saw him this close. All those feelings he has been contained inside him is going to burst out. He can’t control himself anymore.
“Nakajima-kun, shiteru? I’ve been in love with you this whole time” Daiki brushes aside Yuto’s bangs and Yuto who is not really sleeping open up his eyes but Daiki didn’t surprised.
“Forget about Yama-chan and take me instead. I don’t mind if you treat me like a toy as long as I could stay by your side” Daiki caressing Yuto’s cheek softly. Yuto only looks at him with cold eyes and emotionless face but Daiki doesn’t care at all. He climbs on Yuto’s lap.
“I’ll make you forget everything” Daiki meet his forehead with Yuto’s.
“And I’ll never leave your side until you decided to throw me away” Daiki cupped Yuto’s cheeks and kisses Yuto’s bangs. The taller doesn’t move at all and only stares at the guy before his eyes. He obviously can see how foolishly he’s in love with him. New toy? That’s not a bad idea. This guy can be useful to him. Daiki’s lips travelling down to Yuto’s right eyebrow. Yuto closes his eyes and just let Daiki kiss him. He can feel Daiki’s lips touch his both eyes, his nose, his cheeks and it is getting lower. He can do whatever he wants to him. He doesn’t care or more like, he doesn’t care about anything anymore.
“If he can make me forget this annoying pain in my chest, I’ll use him.”
“If he can make me forget about Yamada Ryosuke, I’ll use him…I’ll use him…”
A/n: don’t get mad, it hurt me too when I’m writing this chapter (- -“) but a happy ending that comes from the pain is more beautiful, no?
I saw Yuto’s pic in Wink Up scan wearing a gray suit and his hair is shorter. That is his image for his new dorama deshou? aah~ he looks like a young, hot salaryman~ XD