which came first. the music or the misery ( Read more... )

i can do this. it won't be long. will it?

today study, exam, work. saturday homework, work. sunday work. monday work. tuesday dr's appt and moving. wednesday work. thursday leaving and will be home.

i thoguht i was tired. and now i really am. but i can't let myself sleep. i feel like i owe myself to say something. but i don't. who knows what's going to come next year. or tomorrow. for that matter. i say that i'm not living day to day. and i believe it. but then how are we not? no matter how much we plan ahead, you just can't expect things to ( Read more... )

it is a beautiful fucking day ( Read more... )

so. azure was fun..........and boring. but i handled it well, if not better than most. meeeeeeh ( Read more... )

i was walking home from work tonight. and realized that, at that moment, last year i would have been at fouf's dancing with lin and sabah with 2 more hours and more free beers to go....i miss it. but walking home from work after a glass of cabernet and brushing off two associates of my fan club is okay too. it's nice to say no. it's nice to be here

fuck. the formal's tomorrow and i don't have a dress. and i have work today. fuck. and quack's not working. fuck. and i got wasted last night and said a bunch of stupid blathering shit. nothing controversial. just stupid. ugh. whatever i guess we all have our moments.....i really miss new york lately. rachel was so cute sunday. petal! don't leave ( Read more... )

okay. oh man. backtrack......ummm, friday was fun. although quack was gone all week :( but that's ok cause i was gone all w/e too. and we're working tomorrow. ugh. pathetic. anyway, other than that.....dantes came this friday and we hung out with jess b-w and her boco friends. but it was fun. her roommate came too and he's the shit. soooo. yea, we ( Read more... )

i fucking hate buses. i have always hated buses. but now i hate them even more. their schedules suck and i always get the seat next to some crazy motherfucker. but i slept through most of it last night/this morning anyway, so i should really stop bitching. but whatever ( Read more... )

why does he come every single fucking night?! leave me alone ( Read more... )