It's weird to look at pictures and feel nothing for him. (I'm talking about Tero.) Yes, I looked at his Facebook. I saw a pic of Steve on someone's mutual friends list and thought of him. I saw he had a new girlfriend and thought...well, quite honestly I thought nothing. I thought it was interesting and wondered what she looked like. Haha, ( Read more... )

Right. I'm supposed to be writing in here for a reason. I'm supposed to be writing in here because I'm upset. And writing should help ( Read more... )

Luckily, I've been able to control it lately.  Well somewhat.  I was doing pretty good up until last Friday as I was hanging up the phone.  But that's okay, little damage was done as no one heard the word vomit.  However, Saturday was a different story.  But Saturday is a completely different thing and not the reason I'm writing ( Read more... )

tonight could have gone a lot better than it did.  and to be honest, i didn't expect it to be this bad.  being ignored, feeling used, leaving earlier than i wanted.  yea.  that pretty much sums it up ( Read more... )

i've been feeling very lonely lately.  but i'm not sure why.  this whole weekend (starting with thursday) i've been surrounded by people.  a large variety of people. but for some reason i feel alone.

i have no reason to.  and i hate reading through my posts saying that i'm alone, because i know i'm not.  i know millions of people feel lonely ( Read more... )

i had a good entry planned out.
it's a shame i forgot it.

it's AMAZING how sometimes you can just SIT with someone, and be completely content.  you can just sit there, not talking, being lost in your own thoughts, and yet, you're not alone in them.  because although you and that other person may not be thinking the same thing, you're there together. ( Read more... )

One thing about me: I've never been good with advice. Half the time because I'm scared of giving the wrong advice, someone listens to it, and then everything is messed up and it's my fault. I can listen like you wouldn't believe. But when someone asks me for my input, or what they should do, I don't know what to say. And sometimes, people need more ( Read more... )

One man's toxic sludge is another man's POTPOURRI!-the grinch

Your reassurance is my pain.

i'm back to that beating my fists against a brick wall feeling again. cuz i can feel bad all i want to. i can cry all i want to. i can write all i want to. but it's not gonna make him come back any faster. he has to do this on his own. and sometimes i severely doubt him. as shitty as that is, and i know i'm in no position to doubt any of it, ( Read more... )

i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry ( Read more... )