i dont know what to write in here ( Read more... )

i am a good person, and i definately dont deserve this. This is probably the hardest thing ive ever done especially to know that someone doesnt care anymore, not one bit. not to know your home safely, not to know youre doing alright, nothing. i have lost every bit of respect and sympathy. i have lost a dear friendship until a change can occur. ( Read more... )

so at this point in time im really not happy. i love my friends i know that. but still I get used and i hate it. I hate being the girl everyone can depend on sometimes. its only cause everyone knows i care and i would do anything for anyone. I set myself up for it im sure but being used is a terrible feeling.

i hate typing personal things in here but i have so much going on that im ready to explode and i feel like im going in circles when i try to talk to people about everything thats going on. i havent been this down in the pooper in a long time ( Read more... )

apparently things turned out how i figured they would and i am as disposable as i thought i was.

i cant sleep yet again and it sucks. I have so much on my mind but its too complicated to condense on here. if i were to try it would most likely go along the lines of i feel very disposable like people dont need me anymore. sometimes i think too much or take things the wrong way. however, its really starting to get to me and im really sad. i ( Read more... )

i just want to say that tonight dag played an amazing show ( Read more... )

all in all ive realized the only reason why i go crazy sometimes is because i care. wierd enough yeah i care a poop load about everything. i think things are back to normal and its safe to say i like it that way. today i made an appointment with school of visual arts in new york for a portfolio review and im excited/ nervous to meet the office ( Read more... )

my friends are wonderful. its too hot to type and i sound like a man, call me for some entertainment ahahahahahaha.

i wish someone would please tell me whats going on these days. i promised myself i wouldnt get like this and now i am. goshdarnit i apparently suck at life.