lol its been a year since ive written in this thing.
update on life i barely slept last night and i cant sleep tonight
i feel like complete shit.

i am in a lot of pain
i sprained my neck, i don tknow how i did but i did and its a killer
im taking 1200 mg of ibeprofun a day and 2 muscle relxers.
im a little out of it

so today after school there was an awesome letter sitting in my studio space ( Read more... )

it wasnt the alcohol ( Read more... )

i havent updated this in a while because i actually have a life lately ( Read more... )

im a complete ball of stress.
i cant handle myself.
i am about 3 years lacking in the sleep department.
and i think im so tired i want to cry.

im livin!

schools nuts. but i dont even feel like im in school because its all bullshit classes and such.

arcian read is the current band name..........but it will probably change. we have 3 songs in the making!!!
hhaha it doesnt sound like a lot but im happy.

part of me is so happy and the other part of me is a wreck. its so hard to explain. Im so scared of everything now. i think it can be summed up that im nuts.

im a nutcase thats all there is to it. i feel sorry for my friends ahahaha

the summer has been ridiculous ( Read more... )

i hate the fact that i care so much. i found out WONDERFUL news today and apparently ive been lied to. id rather have heard it from someone elses mouth but i guess thats what happens when people dont take the time and talk. i figured i deserved that much. im a wreck and i need to get the hell out of here for this week. i need it so badly.