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we're all dust in the end
i miss having a texting buddy. not that i dont text any of my regular friends. i just miss having that one single person that i can talk to all day long in short bursts. and then all night till either one of us falls asleep. i've had a couple within the last year, but now i dont have one and it sucks. i hate feeling like ive lost touch with people ( Read more... ) -
Would You Kiss Your Mother With That Mouth?
So I'm pretty excited that this whole podcast thing is actually taking off. We've hit a few speed bumps and haven't posted every Monday like we planned, but we are actually keeping at it. I was afraid that we might lose steam after the first few but we are actually more motivated than we were before. We made our facebook page and within the first ( Read more... ) -
My Heart Is Filled With Songs Of Forever
For some reason, I can't explain why, I've been so content lately. I feel like the main character from the movie Office Space as of late. Like, nothing has really changed, if anything things have gotten worse. Yet, I don't seem to care about. About anything. I don't want to call it apathy. Apathy sounds so.... negative. I guess, I've been taking ( Read more... ) -
Everything We Want Is Within Our Reach
So we started a podcast last week. So far it's been a really fun project and I'm eager to continue it. The podcast itself is generally focused on most things considered nerdy - video games, technology, and anything relevant to us that we decide to talk about. We have so much fun recording the actual podcast. I think most of my group of friends are ( Read more... ) -
I Should Have Been A Soldier I Could Have Fought And Died But Theres No Revolution
I am not a shitty person. Robby called me a shitty person yesterday while we were working. It started out as a joke but when I was adamant in defending my own honor he soon realized that he was going to have to actually justify his claim. I try my best to do good for other people. I try my best to help out and be there when needed. I don't do it ( Read more... ) -
Walking Through The Rain We'll See The Beauty In Life Again
My biggest problem is that I've been reflecting way too much lately. I have been bringing up old memories that I found out I still have a hard time dealing with. It sucks that it's true, but fuck... It's true. Maybe it's just because I've been wanting someone to share my life with more than ever. I feel like I tend to tantalize myself with chances ( Read more... ) -
It's Hard To Be The Better Man When You Forget You're Tying
I am my own worst enemy. I beat myself up and I bring myself down for no reason. It's like I won't let myself be happy. What the hell is wrong with me? There has to be some name for this. I constantly remind myself of how badly I've ruined anything that I've ever cared about. I constantly remind myself of how badly I've fucked my life up. ( Read more... ) -
Good To Know That If I Ever Need Attention All I Have To Do Is Die
Yesterday I realized how vain I am. I was watching a funeral scene and for some reason my heart strings were plucked. It make me think about how my funeral will be. It made me think that if I go to war like the soldier on the show that I might die an honorable death. That I would make my friends and family proud. I guess I just feel like I need to ( Read more... )