A. I hate Christmas and especially Christmas music, but I loove that song that's in some commercial that I have no idea what they're advertising haha... helpful I know. But it's a winter song, not a Christmas song, so I feel justified ( Read more... )

I don't believe in much of anything anymore. I'm definitely bitter and kind of depressed, I suppose. I was prescribed anti-anxiety medication today. I'm torn between filling it vs living with this feeling. I hear they take away everything; would it really be so bad, to not feel ANYTHING? The overwhelming feelings have been building and building, I ( Read more... )

My stomach hurts for the first time in a month. It's been a good month, but I was foolish to believe it could last forever. I was in the hospital for a week to discover I have Crohns Disease which supposedly explains so many ailments over the past few years. I hope it's an accurate diagnosis, unlike a few others I've had and I hope we get these ( Read more... )

Some things never change. Mr. Cali continues to have a hold on my heart. We had the most amazing day together yesterday. Like no time or pain had passed between us. I can't further comment without gushing ( Read more... )

It's been quite a long while, and though nothing in the grand scheme of things has changed, things are different. The past month has been really challenging for personal reasons that I care not to discuss and only two people in the world are even aware of. It made me a lot stronger and sure of myself, which I think I needed in some round about way ( Read more... )

Have I mentioned that I HATE dating? Because I really, really do. Jon popped into my life out of thin air and seriously some times it's like "Duhhhh it didn't work with anyone else, he's perfect!" and other times this THING feels vast and empty (which I'm sure is mostly in my crazy head). I don't even know what I want anymore... maybe to fast ( Read more... )

(We were very drunk one night and Con ministered our wedding because I wanted so badly to be an O'Halloran. Haha, I told him I was only using him to be in the family ( Read more... )

So I just glanced back at the beginning of my relationship with Victor according to my LJ. Why couldn't I understand then that things were never going to get better? Because they didn't ( Read more... )