I feel often that vanessa has moved on into adult life without me, but is to nice/kind to say so.

I feel like all her friends get to meet each other, and im the wierd one noone gets along with, and im only acceptable one-on-one

And noones said anything like this, but thats what it feels like.

I am.sometimes afraid when i find myself loving Tim so much, like i do today... Making me laugh, lpoking at me, caring for me, treating me sweetly and speaking to me lovingly...

It makes me deeply happy and also afraid that i wouldnt have the wits about me to notice if slmethings wrong...

Is it ok to just let go and be carefree and happy, for a short ( Read more... )

Tims treated me so nicely these last weeks, very loving and genuine~
   Reminds me why i fell for him...~

Ive been letting myself write here when theres noone i can talk to.

Just writing it down, helps it get out of my head.

I had a dream an hour or so ago, that i was having a garage sale.

It was my driveway, but much bigger, longer, and there were many cars on display.

I somehow got trapped under one, but not under the tires, more like how a cat would sit, huddled under the edge, watching people walk by. I dont know why, but i was stuck there.

Kyle and travis showed up ( Read more... )

Neat stuff
http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-strengths-and-weaknesses

Its been sorta up and doen with tim...

Its hard to believe sometimes that its been a year and a half scince we met. It still feels like he doesnt know me very well yet, like, sometimes, he atoll doesnt knkw who i am...

Ive been so exhausted cleaning the garage ans house, we havnt had a good romp or cuddle in what feels like over a week..
  I hope its just that were tired, and not him tired of me.
   I crave that serious "damn, i love you so much" look, followed by pressing and holding and feeling adored

.. Now that I think about it... I dont feel adored

I havnt felt ( Read more... )

Even if tim and i fight, at least we didcuss the relationship... Kyle never talked about us in an emotional way, so over time it felt like there wasnt any romantic interest anymore...

Tim spent a LOT of time tonight telling me that i should:
Go back to kyle
Make up with kyle
Go back to how it was before, etc

I dont think he realizes even a tiny bit, ( Read more... )

Its 3am and i still doknt get it.
   He hates it when i disagree with his opinions; why? Why does he hate it? We dont need to agree on everthing...