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Even if tim and i fight, at least we didcuss the relationship... Kyle never talked about us in an emotional way, so over time it felt like there wasnt any romantic interest anymore...
Tim spent a LOT of time tonight telling me that i should:
Go back to kyle
Make up with kyle
Go back to how it was before, etc
I dont think he realizes even a tiny bit, that me catoring to Tims insecurity, lost kyles respect for me. He doesnt care, love, trust, or want to know me.
It hurts me when tim tells me to "just go back to kyle, who doesnt CARE if you wear skirts or plays cards"
Its VERY insulting. It makes it seem like he doesnt even recognize the sacrifice i made to be with him.
"Just go back", like its no big deal
Tim cheated on me, and i just let him come back because i missed him so much... And wed been together a year. But five years? Is tim nuts? Kyle doesnt want ti be friends. He doesnt even keep stuff i gave him. That bridge is burnt.
Sometimes i almost feel like fate is punishing me, witg Tim, for Kyle... As though, god is turning Tim into a meaner person, for the hurt i caused kyle.. And its my duty tk take punishment for that.