in two weeks i start the rest of my life. I will be a QC weld inspector makeing 12/hr and 90/per deim, three weeks on one week off and 85,000 my first yr. im soo happy and excited, the clouds have parted and the sun is shining brightly down.. i humbly thank god and family for always standing beside me encouraging me to reach for the heavens. i feel ( Read more... )

so i just gotta say, its hard living in two different worlds.. i know who i am and i know what is expected of me and at the same time i know what and who i want to be, trying to find a balance between the two has been driving me crazy for years now. i wish things could be simple and i know the saying life is only aws hard as you make it. well i ( Read more... )

well last beer for me. have a smoke finish this brew and time to rack out...gettin a job in the am...i just want t oget into the union, im sick of this dead end shit and druggie jobs.. i mean i enjoy smokein some bud now and then, i just dont wanna work with people that are high all the fuckin time or what not..plus i wont have want i want if i ( Read more... )

well got a line on a job aigain, another cooking job.. i hate to admit it, i really dont want to get it tho i do need a job and soon or im gonna really be in a pickel money wise. im gonna have to bite the bullet and take the first job that comes up, least till i get word about my union app..that would be great, least thats something ill be proud of ( Read more... )

welll another day down, more apps turned in. really dont want to but i need to start workin again, will take my ass down and apply for this kitchen job tho id rather be starting a long time carrer rather than another dead end job ill end up hateing in 2 or 3 years..still have hopes up for either this state job or my app for UA comes in and i get ( Read more... )

here i am sitting up drinking beer with my roomie and his girl. country is on pandora and nothings better than it switching to the man himself Frank Sinatra!!!!!!!!!! what now, only thing to make this any better would be to have someone to dance a lil with and hold close to me.. all in all atleast i have my music and it does the job to make me feel ( Read more... )

well another day in the hunt...not looking too good. got a few places to go tomorrow tho i really dont want to be cooking anymore, im kinda burned out on it. still hopeing to find something id like to do. One job i did apply for is for a railway coach position, its cooking but it would be all summer and part of fall on a train in Alaska! would ( Read more... )

what a nite, had some drinks with some ppl and fuck me i almost died....and im the sober one, then i get cut by accident put hot metal to the wound to stop the bleeding and got bitched at by a native for not doing some naative "earth" cure with processeded fucking pig meat... burn the wound shut and call it fucking good....fuk.. leave me alone to ( Read more... )

Well another unsuccesful day, little bummed out that finding a new job is going so slow. i really hope things will turn around soon. I've got some goals and plans on monday i want to accomplish, once i do that ill be feeling better about how things are right now. i guess my only thing i cant change right now is the lonliness at the moment. well ( Read more... )

well im having trouble making up my mind.. wait and see how things turn out with my bro's house or move in with my other bro and his girl...im just not sure tho where im at now is been too long. moving in with my boss was a fast fix to an easy problem. now that i want to come and go as i please, have 1 or 2 drinks and not get stoned, my lifestyle ( Read more... )