late night
so i just gotta say, its hard living in two different worlds.. i know who i am and i know what is expected of me and at the same time i know what and who i want to be, trying to find a balance between the two has been driving me crazy for years now. i wish things could be simple and i know the saying life is only aws hard as you make it. well i seem to have made it very fucking hard indeed. i will always be attracted to who im attracted to, i will always feel the way i do about things and ill always think the way i have thought about things. it just gets old and tiresome living between worlds its funny people wonder why or think im weird because i say i wish i could live in a nice comefy cabin on a mountian in the woods and not have to deal with people except when i want to. truth is i just dont want to have to deal with others shit and live how i want with out judgement.. guess ill just have to keep on surviving life and hope i make it out in one peice...