I work tonight so, ill see you late tonight. I don’t expect you to understand why I want to sleep and cry all the time, it is just how I deal with you leaving. I can’t help how I feel about you leaving, it sucks for me and it hurts really deep down inside. It is all happening too fast, I thought I was mentally ready for it but, I am not L 8 ( Read more... )

i got a whole 3 hours of sleep becuase the guy i sleep next to every week annoys me so much when i try and go to sleep that he woke me up to where i was wide awake so, i got my stuff packed up and went to my house this morning to sleep and then get ready ( Read more... )

i just wish for one time and one time only for someone to give a shit about me, put me first above themselves ( Read more... )

i need to find myself. i am lost in the stress. i wonder if anyone can see it like i feel it.

I forgot how many stupid things I used to write about. It is all sort of surreal and depressing. Things change a lot. Eh, you live and you learn. Lets pick up where we left off, shall we?

just that trying to understand.

. im not fine. im in pain.   my innocence was stripped away. my heart broken for all days.

i wonder if you think of me. tinking about you. everyday. can't you call. can't you write. i always think you might. why do i hold on. why do i wait.

we all need to learn how to communicate better....it is the most major factor of life. 

there are a lot of times i feel gulity that i have gone to bible college and i feel like i don't use any of it anymore. i have not told anyone about Christ in sooo long. the only conversations i have any more are about how good God is to us or how we need to be in prayer about someone in illness or travel. My relationship has gone sour. I want it ( Read more... )

so being confused is never fun. im such a fickle girl. i wish i could just make up my mind about my life and decide what i want in it. i find so much comfort in my friends that have been there done that. i just thank God for them and what they have gone through. i know today i grew a little. some days at least lately have just been blah... but, ( Read more... )