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[rica838]

I work tonight so, ill see you late tonight. I don’t expect you to understand why I want to sleep and cry all the time, it is just how I deal with you leaving. I can’t help how I feel about you leaving, it sucks for me and it hurts really deep down inside. It is all happening too fast, I thought I was mentally ready for it but, I am not L 8 days is going by really, really fast and then before you and I know it you will just gone. It isn’t like I can pick up the phone and call you, or get in my car and come visit you on a weekend; you are living half way across the world. Things won’t be the same once you are gone. I am sure you will have good intentions to stay in touch but the reality is I am almost positive you will forget about me, forget to email, and call then eventually you will move on with your life leaving me as just this memory. I wonder if you will ever have a plan for coming back to see me or if this is really a “good bye” I am just a realist you know that, I am just grieving over the fact that in 8 days you won’t be walking through the door on your break or at night. I will never see your face again. In 8 days, this house will just be empty, I will be eating alone, have no one to talk to at night or hang out with on the weekends. I am going to miss you like crazy! I know your life in Abu Dhabi is going to be amazing. You will be very successful at CNN, living your dream and for that I am extremely happy for you.

I have to try and pick up the pieces of my life and move on acting like I am happy and not sad, it is easier said than done :(