Finally
This for naria, inspired by liz barr.
It took me long enough and hopefully I can pull off the rest of the drabbles I owe this month, though this turned into a full blown fic.
Fandom: Naruto
Title: Inevitable
Pairing: dark KakaSaku
She knows it is a certainty-- he will save her, he is the only one left to.
(she knows this)
He will save them. Kakashi. Will save her and the child.
(he is the only one left)
Sasuke will die.
(she knows this)
Naruto will die.
(that is the certainty she dreads /toorecklesstoolovingtooloyaltoolate/ but one she knows too well: he could never stand by and not protect his precious people - even against one of them)
(especially against one of them)
They will fight, and they will die.
(when she was twelve years old, she knows this. The boys fight and succeed, fail and bleed, together, back to back, closer than kin, than the brothers they almost are)
(when she was twelve years old, she knows this and is happy, pleased, and a bit jealous)
(when she is nineteen years old, she knows this and is numb)
Sasuke will die.
(she is certain of this)
She will kill him.
(she understands this like the heaviness beneath her belly)
(a certainty as solid as the weight of the kunai hidden in her right hand, the unseen thrust into his heart, and the presence of two corpses at her feet)
Sasuke will die, and she will live, because Kakashi will have saved her.
And the child.
(she loves them and wants to be with them but can’t)
(they have made their beds and now they have to lie in them but she can’t)
(they are adults, she is an adult but someone else /itthechildthebabytheirbabyherbabyherbaby/ isn’t so no matter how much she loves them, no matter how much she wants to lie down beside them and shut her eyes and just sleep- she can’t)
(she can’t)
The others will come and take her away.
Tsunade will attend to her, Lee will look after her, and Ino will hold her as she grieves.
And grief will harbor her, embrace her, and cradle her until it defines her.
She will grieve, and he will stay by her side.
And then.
And then her tears will dry, her laugh will return, and her child will speak and walk and run and look at her with dahlia colored eyes.
Then.
Then, she will go to him.
He will love her.
She will love him.
At least as far as she is able to.
(she understands this)
(she doesn’t particularly want this)
(but she knows it all the same)
It took me long enough and hopefully I can pull off the rest of the drabbles I owe this month, though this turned into a full blown fic.
Fandom: Naruto
Title: Inevitable
Pairing: dark KakaSaku
She knows it is a certainty-- he will save her, he is the only one left to.
(she knows this)
He will save them. Kakashi. Will save her and the child.
(he is the only one left)
Sasuke will die.
(she knows this)
Naruto will die.
(that is the certainty she dreads /toorecklesstoolovingtooloyaltoolate/ but one she knows too well: he could never stand by and not protect his precious people - even against one of them)
(especially against one of them)
They will fight, and they will die.
(when she was twelve years old, she knows this. The boys fight and succeed, fail and bleed, together, back to back, closer than kin, than the brothers they almost are)
(when she was twelve years old, she knows this and is happy, pleased, and a bit jealous)
(when she is nineteen years old, she knows this and is numb)
Sasuke will die.
(she is certain of this)
She will kill him.
(she understands this like the heaviness beneath her belly)
(a certainty as solid as the weight of the kunai hidden in her right hand, the unseen thrust into his heart, and the presence of two corpses at her feet)
Sasuke will die, and she will live, because Kakashi will have saved her.
And the child.
(she loves them and wants to be with them but can’t)
(they have made their beds and now they have to lie in them but she can’t)
(they are adults, she is an adult but someone else /itthechildthebabytheirbabyherbabyherbaby/ isn’t so no matter how much she loves them, no matter how much she wants to lie down beside them and shut her eyes and just sleep- she can’t)
(she can’t)
The others will come and take her away.
Tsunade will attend to her, Lee will look after her, and Ino will hold her as she grieves.
And grief will harbor her, embrace her, and cradle her until it defines her.
She will grieve, and he will stay by her side.
And then.
And then her tears will dry, her laugh will return, and her child will speak and walk and run and look at her with dahlia colored eyes.
Then.
Then, she will go to him.
He will love her.
She will love him.
At least as far as she is able to.
(she understands this)
(she doesn’t particularly want this)
(but she knows it all the same)