I can feel my mind slipping. Everything is going in slow motion as I grind out yet another day powerless to do anything. I can barely feign interest. This 6 months (now 11, dammit!) was supposed to be my time to evolve myself further, to further my agenda. Nothing gets done. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm an intelligent beast....why am I ( Read more... )

Monday night on the 25th, jeez, one more month until Christmas. Fuck that's depressing. Christmas for me has changed from something to look forward to into something that has to be suffered through. Christmas Eve I always try to go to sleep early so I can just sleep through. I'm not sure why I feel like that. I miss my family I suppose, but ( Read more... )

How many days? I've lost track at this point. I rack my brain for hours, but the answers don't come as easy anymore. I used to be able to fill notebook after notebook, now the blank paper mocks me. I've got the back to school special from hell. Lots of loose paper, pens, pencils, but no ideas. I'm not even as eager to go home now, what is there ( Read more... )