i remember when i was a little girl, how i always admired those that were older than me. i though that being older meant more freedom, being able to stay up late, being able to go out. Being young your freedom was always limited but you never had to take on responsibility either. freedom always comes at a price. I'm at a point where i just want ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel so small. not invisable, but barely there, like the wind could blow me away and no one would notice. it's wierd, i guess i've just been getting a lot of these ups and downs lately ( Read more... )

i just read some of my previous entries and wow, i'm such a hypocrite. I think i should stop writing when i'm pissed and run like a normal person. Well it's what i've been doing lately.. notice how i've been writing less? lol. I think we all focus too much on the negative so i'm going to start write when i'm happy or when great things happen in ( Read more... )

Yesterday i had one long ass shift. 11-4 then back again for staff meeting from 7-10pm which was really a cleaning shift so that the store would look for montreal inspection today. During break, went home, found out that my uncle (he's back yay!) took my key out of my key chain, couldn't get it and then bused back to work and went shopping with ( Read more... )

so many useless thoughts in my head. i found out yesterday from conrad that ben's grandmother passed away recently. sigh, now i feel awful for being such a bitch. i'll make him cupcakes this weekend, hopefully i can make it up to him ( Read more... )

Perhaps i should reconcider my views and ideals. Adjust my way of thinking, because i think recently i've just been focusing on the wrong things. Focusing on being perfect. On changing the way i live, the way i do things, the way i react. I keep thinking there is everything wrong with me, analzing things more than i should. i keep trying to fix ( Read more... )

when two people who completely don't know eachother tell you the same thing, it has got to be true, right? I don't know if what i'm doing is right or wrong or if it will get me the results i wish to achieve but what i do know is that if it's meant to be, it will be. I must not waste energy into nonsense if all it's going to do is cause problems ( Read more... )

man.. i'm so stressed out. this week is gonna be killer ( Read more... )

it's like i act without thinking ( Read more... )

up since 6 for about everyday these past 2 weeks. so freaken tired. im never signing up for 8:30 classes again. It also didnt help that i had to stay at sfu til midnight to help out with Dessert Theatre Night that the CAC was throwing. It was really well delegated and i was quite impressed. Other than almost being dead i had a really good time ( Read more... )