im having the most horrible night. i was watching an episode of greys anatomy, the one where georges dad dies (for those who know the show), and i just start crying. at first, i thought it was just because it was a sad part of the show, but then i just kept on going...i miss my dad. i started hating myself and him for time lost. time we could have ( Read more... )

i need new clothes.
someone give me money.

blah blah blah.
so michaels and i broke up.
i hate my job.
mothers day was horrible.

i got my car working again though!!!
:)

Today i am going back to the hellhole that is SA.
I have enjoyed being away from that place.
i do miss a couple people but other than that
i dont miss my job, or anything else.

I DONT WANT TO FLY.
it sucks big pee pee.

ill be in late tonite.
kbyeeee

i will be out of town from tmrw morning
until thursday night. too bad only like
3 people will notice im gone. super gay.
im a loser.

i have taken it, blow after blow
but this time, this hit, was direct
and im not sure if i will recover
this time. im really hurt.

i dont see how you think these things
you did were okay.

i just dont understand, when im so selfless.

sometimes i just dont know what to think.

things are just getting worse for me.
my life is shitting on me but its
all my fault in some way so i cant
act like i deserve sympathy. i dont.
i fuck myself over constantly and
dont realize i do it until its done.
when will i ever just fucking grow up?

i am slowly moving into my new room here at dads ( Read more... )

so ive been living at dads for almost 2 weeks now ( Read more... )