I don't find it necessary to recount a biographical explanation of Why I Became Interested in Perfume (they all go about the same way - I had an idea of what perfume is like, but one time, in my youth, I smelled a bottle of something that surprised me in a way that I had never been surprised before). (That or younger people going through a fin de ( Read more... )

wasted on you, your slender body
your fearful body, full of death
binding you as it does to this vale of tears.
God lay me down as you do
willingly,
pleasurelessly, and in deep hate.

the void God left is not to be distinguished from God
in the absence of a lover court your sorrow,
in search of comfort pursue pain.

They say hair is medicine, but the problem is ( Read more... )

It involved a lot of money, a lot of engineering, some early forays into interstellar travel, and a longer story than the one I'm preparing to tell here, but what with one thing or another, Jacob Moose fell through a hole in time. ( Read more... )

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A symptom for you:
jamais vu,
or "never seen:"
in a familiar place,
among familiar things,
a thought comes down like thunder:
You were never here.
You have never done it before.
This is wrong.

So. Follow your threat like a river,
coursing
to dissociate is pagan.
Something holy walks these floors.

(Ears flat, shoulders low. Prowl the meager ridge of fear ( Read more... )

You don't fast ( Read more... )

You have a cancer in you,
somewhere,
and if you could put your finger on it
you could take it from yourself. Move on.

the way you fail
and you can rely on yourself to fail
in the same ways:
a constance, a religion.
God put a tiredness in you.
It isn't a gift.

your rotting, corpulent brain
your petulant body
a house of indecision.
Yes, it is something inside ( Read more... )

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Been having kind of a depressive episode so I didn't want to promise anything, but whatever, I can always quit.

God exists - and in a roundabout way I’m paraphrasing CS Lewis in the most contemptuously flippant way possible - essentially, to set a good example. God is bound irrevocably by the laws he’s made for himself and chief among this covenant seems to be that God will not violate free will. This is why God begs us, why God begs and begs and begs, for ( Read more... )