You might think I'm losing my mind, but I will shy away from the specifics. Cause I don't want you to know where I am, because then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life. I talk to absolutely no one, couldn't keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside have finally begun to create ( Read more... )

I realize that both situations are exactly the same. And I realize now that I'm totally over the first, and that it's only time until I'm completely over the second. That gives me some relief. But I also realize the circumstances are very different this time. I just hope it gets easier ( Read more... )

I can teach you: how to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment, how to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone, how to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite, how to hate god when you're suppose to be a spiritualist, how to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else, how to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself, ( Read more... )

I'm ready to leave. I'm ready to get out of this house. Monday was pretty much the last straw. Basically spent from 4am to 8am crying. Then at school, during breakfast, Mal asked me what was wrong so I started to tell her and I just bursted into tears again. One worst part of it all was when my mom and Adam defended Dan's actions. I don't ( Read more... )

I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING YOU SAID, EVERY DRIVEN WORD. FELL, LIKE A HAMMER TO MY HEAD.

Heard The World ( Read more... )

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KASEY COMES HOME TONIGHT ( Read more... )

I hate vagueness. I need clear and defined logic, reason, or rules. I hate not knowing where I stand with someone ( Read more... )

I really enjoy providing the get-a-way car for Adam after he gets off work and has stolen a case of beer. Then whiles he's walking into the house he accidentally drops numerous bottles of prescription pills in front of me ( Read more... )

I don't want to get into the details of it. I really don't even want to dwell on it, but the constant aching of my jaw keeps reminding me. I'm focusing more on the impact all this has on me. As much as I try to distance myself from it, as much as I try to forget about it, it's still always there. I think the scariest thing is that I suppress it all ( Read more... )