Ugh... I don't understand why it's so difficult to eat a normal amount of calories... today I ate 705 and burned 600.  I wish I could eat 1,200 or something... but it's always like 3,000... 4,000...

i want to be thin!  and i want a grahm cracker, hehe

I'm back on the calorie counting wagon.  It sucks, but I think I'm just one of those people who's always going to have to... when I don't pay attention to what I'm eating, I just eat and eat and eat and yeah, I get full... even uncomfortably full sometimes, but it doesn't stop me ( Read more... )

Why can't I shake this feeling?!?!  He is too young for me!  This is wrong!!

AAAAH!

I am falling for a guy much much younger than me.  Like, I'm 21 and he is six years younger than me.  He's 15.  That means for a while we'll be seven years apart ( Read more... )

I can ride a bike!  yeeeee-ah!  This is going to be great!  Fun exercise and tanning all in one!

I lost six pounds in the past week!!!  Yeeeah!!!

And I just found out today that since the last week in February (my last dr. visit) I've lost 20 pounds total!!!

yay me!

omg i want a corn dog.  so much.

 don't think I've done all that well, tomorrow's weigh in.  they call roll at the meetings and you have to say whether you gained or lost ( Read more... )

still crushing on "him" hardcore.  and we're still friends, better friends than before.  he took me to the airport and waited with me for two hours when i missed my bus.  have only talked to him once in the four days i've been home... and aim convo.  it was good though, he asked me how i was and what i've been doing since home and if i've been ( Read more... )

well, things are going alright.  i've stopped really counting calories b/c with the last week of school there's been a lot of eating out and it's just impossible.  what i am doing is not eating until i am absolutely sure that i'm hungry and then stopping as soon as i think i MIGHT be full ( Read more... )

no, i want to say more.  this is the only place i can talk about it so why not.  i want to kill myself.  how the fuck could he not fucking bring himself to just fucking love me?  or at least fucking stay the fuck away from her in my own goddam house.  i fucking asked that he stay out of her room but he's there crouched at her feet by her computer ( Read more... )