Ok, so I know its been forever. I guess I just been living the kind of life one wants to post on the internet the last while. Rachel and I broke up and I hopped immeadiately into bed with someone else. Not a good idea, don't really reccomend it. Miranda is beautiful and smart and grows deeper in my heart by the day. At the end of the six month ( Read more... )

I feel like my life is out of control lately. I know I've made some really poor choices lately. I broke someone's heart, and she has the goodness to forgive me and forge a friendship that I don't really deserve. I sleep next to someone at night now, but I'm not sure for how long. My daughter is beautiful and smart and smiles, and I am so full of ( Read more... )

I broke up with Rachel today. In as much as its possible to break up with someone who technically isn't "dating". She wants too many other things. She's going away to school next year, and no matter where I transfer I won't be much closer, and I don't think I can do another few years of this. I love her. It made me sick to hear her keep tears back ( Read more... )

I picked a fight with Rachel today. I actually raised my voice. I've never yelled at her before. I want her here, living with me, raising Miranda, smiling at us every morning. She doesn't want to live here...with me yes, in Montana, no. She's also not sure if she wants to dedicate her life to the raising of a child that isn't even approaching her ( Read more... )

Well, let no one ever say that it is easy to travel with a small child. Sleeps the whole time my ass. Miranda had earaches the whole flight, and cried almost the whole time. Not fun at all. I will no longer ever stare with rage and the poor men and women with screaming babies on the plane. It was horrible. But we got home in one piece. With a few ( Read more... )

Rachel hurt herself. I knew it! I knew that all this skiing by herself would end badly. A concussion, sprained back, and broken ribs later, she was cranky and tired and at home. I called her a few minutes ago and she's sleeping. Went to school today even. Poor Noodle, incredibly pissed off and in a lot of pain are not her finer qualities. And she's ( Read more... )

I really felt the burn of being in a "relationship" and not actually being in the same timezone last night. I hate it when Rachel cries...it never happens unless she's just crazy tired and crazy upset, and she was so sad last night. And I couldn't be there. My first reaction was just to get mad at the person who made her cry...which isn't right... ( Read more... )

I came within feet of flying out of Buffalo last night. I sat in the boarding aread and talked on the cell to Rachel for like an hour, and she helped me decide to stay for awhile. I'm taking up all of my vacation time, but its an important cause. My ex wife's daughter, Miranda, is in pretty bad shape. I think its time for me to put on some "daddy" ( Read more... )

I'm off to New York! Miles of snow, below zero temperatures...the landscape won't even change. Haha. I'm not sure whether I'll post there or not. I'm beginning to really like this whole journal thing...I can see why everyone digs it. Anyway, talk to you all later. Those of you who need to, expect Email from me around 2am your time. N, if that's ( Read more... )

Well, I've spent the morning becoming tecnologically up to date. I'm now the proud owner of my own hotmail account, and an msn screen name. I doubt I'll be online much when I'm home, but eh, it gives me a chance to chat when I'm at work on the good internet. Mine at home is good for a quick mail check and that's pretty much it...lots of ( Read more... )