too far away
I really felt the burn of being in a "relationship" and not actually being in the same timezone last night. I hate it when Rachel cries...it never happens unless she's just crazy tired and crazy upset, and she was so sad last night. And I couldn't be there. My first reaction was just to get mad at the person who made her cry...which isn't right...but my girl cried! Not just leaked, but sobbed and felt bad and was nutty. And I was powerless.No hugs or kisses, just stupid advice from a guy that hardly knows anything. I can't read her over the phone, she doesn't want to be mean,so she doesn't say what she's thinking. I feel so lost trying to be there for her. I LOVE YOU NOODLE!!!Please feel better. I really need to get transferred.
As for NY,things are going really well. Miranda's doing better. I swear she's even gained some weight in the last few days. Mom feeds her every time she's not sleeping. Shannon and I have been ironing out custody...it looks like she'll be signing guardianship over to me for awhile and Miranda will be a Montana girl. Hopefully a Leavenworth girl. I've gotten to see my boys. Paul's new girlfriend might actually be a keeper this time, and they're all getting closer to the grown up world of jobs. We've had some good talks amidst all the beer and football. To say the least I've been busy. I almost feel like a real father now. My Panda-manda. (I think I just lost a testicle there in the words of Henry Rollins)This is getting cheesy. I just had to expound I guess.
As for NY,things are going really well. Miranda's doing better. I swear she's even gained some weight in the last few days. Mom feeds her every time she's not sleeping. Shannon and I have been ironing out custody...it looks like she'll be signing guardianship over to me for awhile and Miranda will be a Montana girl. Hopefully a Leavenworth girl. I've gotten to see my boys. Paul's new girlfriend might actually be a keeper this time, and they're all getting closer to the grown up world of jobs. We've had some good talks amidst all the beer and football. To say the least I've been busy. I almost feel like a real father now. My Panda-manda. (I think I just lost a testicle there in the words of Henry Rollins)This is getting cheesy. I just had to expound I guess.