i just want to end this all, my life is going downhill fast, all my fault. i dont know what im doing anymore. it just seems like im barely keeping myself alive sometimes. im really starting to lose motivation and the will just to get up in the morning anymore. i just wish i could start over with everything and everyone. i've definatly made alot of ( Read more... )

yesterday, was the greatest day of my life

wow, another sleeples night, this is 3 in a row, all i wanna do is go to bed, but i can't. i'm not gunna be able to go to quizno's now, i'm just gunna reschedual. i wish i could hang out with danielle, i wanna make her laugh, havn't seen her smile in a while :-\, mostly my fault. idk. i got to thinkng, it would be pretty cool if i did, huh danielle ( Read more... )

another sleepless night, this is 2 in a row now. i just want to sleep =(, this stress is killing me. danielle told me tonight that she was gunna pay my rent if i couldn't do it, or that i could live at her house. i could never do anything like that, i mean there would be no way i could ever repay her, plus i think i would drive her nuts with the ( Read more... )

oh man, this entire week has been nothing but hell, no sleep tonight once again, idk i think it's all the stress that was just so well timed. idk i have no clue what happened tonight, i left karens with the impression that danielle was mad at me, and if she is, she has no reason to bem i mean i didn't do anything, i mean i'm doing so much, i mean i ( Read more... )

rooled again last night, not as good, the rolls were ok, i wish danielle was there, that woulda been more fun,i just wanted her in my arms pretty much the whole time lol, well i'm about to pass out so i'll update soon, idk when, later for now.

Avo!D*

damn, it's like 10 of 9 in the morning, i can't even remember the last time i was up this early., i doubt anyone even reads this thing anymore, but if you do, leave me comments, that's why i update, because people leave comments, so if you want me to update, LEAVE COMMENTS!

i like good days =)

oh man, i rolled last night, fucking sick of course. danielle slept over with steve and mike. and no one got any sleep, steve and brian were up all night on the computer, and mike pass out for a lil on the couch. idk nothing else really happened

hmmm...another birthday come and gone, but it was really fun, spent most of it with danielle =) that was definatly a good thing.i can't exactly remember what i said to her, but idk if i want to lol. idk what else to tell you people, all you do is whine and bitch that i don't update my journal, and then when i do no one comments, so there might be a ( Read more... )