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another sleepless night, this is 2 in a row now. i just want to sleep =(, this stress is killing me. danielle told me tonight that she was gunna pay my rent if i couldn't do it, or that i could live at her house. i could never do anything like that, i mean there would be no way i could ever repay her, plus i think i would drive her nuts with the thank you's lol. i really don't know what i'm gunna do. it's been like 4 days since i smoked, and to tell you the truth, i like it. i have way more energy as you can tell. idk, i guess i'm drug free now, besides drinking that is =). i just want to have a normal week, a week where i don't fuck shit up, just a week where i can relax with the people i want. and if i can't have that, then all i want is just one day, where me and danielle are alone, so we can finally talk, because that's something i need to start doing better with. wow, this entry is so scattered. oh well, that's what i get with 36 hours of no sleep. sigh.....why do i have to suck so bad at everything? any answers or comments will be greatly appreciated and returned, thank you.
+Avo!D
+Avo!D