So many times I've just wanted to give up ( Read more... )

I feel like looking up airfare to somewhere...Anywhere. I could blow all of my car money and just leave for a few months. I'm tired of being tired of where I am. Where I always am. I want to feel something new. Feel a new breeze against my cheeks. Breath in a different air. Speak with with new faces. Live my life the way I choose. What I would give ( Read more... )

My baby's leaving early tomarrow morning. I spent my after-school day with him and Rach. I was thinking about all the things I will miss of him when he's gone. Like his ever so warm hugs he gives me constantly. They feel like sunshine in my heart. Or, the feel of his face against mine. Smooth and lovely, perfect. Or, the way he looks at me when I ( Read more... )

I got lost in you tonight ( Read more... )

I feel like screaming and pulling my hair out! This week has been kind of stressful but I've been trying my hardest to do the right things. (sort of) My mom, nothing is ever good enough for her. I could spend 8 hrs cleaning the whole fucking house and still there would be something for her to bitch at me about. I feel SO unapreitiated. Lately, when ( Read more... )

Today has felt as unreal, and very similar to the last 7 days. A great unreal. I never knew that a stranger's face could make me so happy. When I say happy, I mean absolutely glowing with this radiant light of delightful contentment. I could spend hours with him and never get weary from the company. He's beyond wonderful, and the only thing I want ( Read more... )

I am mad a this place. I've always been one to look for the good in everything. It used to be so easy. My kid mind would blind me of what's really there, not anymore. I see things now. Things I can't ingnore anymore. They are too blunt and ugly for me to pass by. Today I witnessed something I had never experienced so close. I was riding with my ( Read more... )

I am afraid that I have begun something I had no intention of. Something that in turn is hurting the soul i really love. I can't take it back, but oh how i wish i could. you wouldn't believe. why is it that people take advantage? How is it that they get the chance. I have many things to say. Many wounds to expose but i won't. I can't. why should I ( Read more... )