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I’m not quite sure why I have such a fixation with Mysterious D. Perhaps I see a lot of myself in her. Since my last entry, I’ve learned that her husband’s father committed suicide. From what I gather, it put some strain on their relationship. I’ve also learned that her son has attempted suicide on at least two occasions. Yet, she doesn't seem to ( Read more... )

I dreamed of someone that I haven't spoken to or seen in quite some time. In fact, I haven't even really been thinking of him all that much - well with the exception of this little pirate keychain that I saw the other day and really wanted to purchase for him. I suppose that is why the dream caught me off guard. Well that, and the elements of the ( Read more... )

Mysterious D who I love never fails to amaze me. I learned recently that this woman who I find so incredible with her resistance to a life of isolation and destitution does in fact have children. She is 65 years of age and is as full of life as a child who has just discovered the power of their own legs, yet she is as alone as someone who has never ( Read more... )

There's this woman that I work with that I find to be absolutely fascinating. We'll call her Dianne, and that will serve her well as her name really is Dianne. Dianne is 65 years old and maybe 1oo pounds. She works in the laundry room six days a week. When the Inn was closed after the fire, it was Dianne that I was worried about the most. It wasn't ( Read more... )

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So there's this woman in her 60s that I work with. She and I were talking one day about -D- who also works there and who is in love with -P-. The woman told me that she had informed -D- that there was no such thing as love. She said that love was just a "fleeting thing." "Only an emotion," she said. "It comes and then it's gone," she told me. I ( Read more... )

I'm walking down a dark desolate road at night when from out of the creeping fog I see an image of myself walking toward me from the opposite direction. She tells me to turn around and go back, but I am in a hurry to reach my destination and I press forward. I pass myself again and again in rapid succession. Each duplicate of myself warns me to ( Read more... )

I was just contemplating about the forces of negativity. I wonder if it is possible to generate so much anger and negative feelings that they actually begin to manifest and materialize around you? Secondly if this is indeed possible, what steps could be taken to correct it? I'm sure that mediating would assist in relieving the problem. However I've ( Read more... )

Does it ever feel like your past just sneaks up behind you, grabs you by the shoulder, spins you around and punches you repeatedly in the face? This seems to be the case over the last few days. One of my friends told me that she saw my ex-husband on the street the other day and that he looked like death. I haven't heard from him in over a year, but ( Read more... )