Comments | quirkytizzy: Self doubt

quirkytizzy

Self doubt

Dec 27, 2023 07:30

So sometimes the internal monologue responds like this:

OTHER PERSON: You're so pretty!
ME: Thanks! internally: It's all just makeup and angles. It's fake.

OTHER PERSON: You're so smart!
ME: Thanks! internally: It's all just surface material I get skimming headlines. It's fake.

OTHER PERSON: You're so compassionate!
ME: Thanks! internally: I ( Read more... )

dealing with the crazy

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madman101 December 27 2023, 15:00:34 UTC

Hi. I am glad you are posting again. Good posts. Sorry about your difficulties! Good to write though. Ran into this today, posting elsewhere, thought it might help - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rik5E7wey0w All the best.

matrixmann December 27 2023, 19:42:16 UTC

...I can't say how much this type of thinking is normal to a certain degree for everyone, be it trauma survivor, permanently ill, plagued by poverty and financial worries or not.

Just a note about it: Even the (supposedly) strong have that from time to time. ... ...

eyelid December 29 2023, 17:23:47 UTC

"I know deep down, I'm really a bad person who just manipulated everyone into liking me."

Dude then you would be really really good at manipulation. But I don't think you are manipulating anyone (any more than the normal person does).

But if I AM clear........what if they tell me truth?What truth is it that you want to know ( ... )

eyelid December 29 2023, 18:02:39 UTC

ok so and one other thing. (a very long thing, lol) I used to do the same thing that you are doing here - minimize anything good about me and focus only on the negative. Beat myself up all the time, never give myself credit for anything. Considering myself never "good enough".

That's a very human trait, to have imposter syndrome about being a human with value.

So when I was in IOP after my suicide attempt (you missed a lot :D) they pointed out that I was basically verbally abusing myself. I was essentially living with a person in my head who immediately belittled and dismissed any good thing people said about me, or that I might have thought about myself, and coldly, ruthlessly berated me about my perceived shortcomings all day instead. If someone else were doing that to me, everyone would be horrified, because that person would clearly be being toxic and abusive. If a partner ever treated me that way I would immediately start working to get myself out of that relationship (it can take me awhile, but I'd be working on it.) But ( ... )

eyelid December 29 2023, 18:02:54 UTC

So instead of being abusive to yourself, activate the nurturing, protective part of yourself. When you hear yourself start to be abusive, stand up for yourself, as if you were championing someone else - a vulnerable person going through a hard time. Demand that the unfair, abusive part of yourself be fair. Point out all the things it is ignoring ( ... )