So here I am in Canada waiting for my birthday to come up, jesus Im bored and haven't heard from anyone, blah blah blah, talking to myself anyway gonna go get drunk hurrah!

Well last night I unfortunatly found only one reason not to plunge my knife into my throught, and that was becuase I didn't want melissa to find me like that, figured it would be kinda fucked up of me. So now Im at work, and all I can think about is killing the person on the other end of the phone, so Im not as bad.
Thank god for cigarettes

Thats my thought of the moment, FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this normal day to day bullshit life I lead I can't fucking stand it anymore I stay here thinking things will get better but they do just remain the fucking same day in day out and Im sick of this Im sick of all your bullshit. Im sick of all the I love you's, Im sick of the smiling face in front of me, Im sick of giving a shit about ( Read more... )

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STILL FUCKING AWAKE AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

So yeah its about 4:51 in the am good mourning although the day continues for me, thank you thank you, ahh yes what to write about, well.....I can't seem to be able to go to fucking sleep HAHA! Yeaahhhhh....mmmmmm... this sucks I love this so fucking much right now :) Well on the flip side I did buy a shit load of energy drinks early on YESTERDAY ( Read more... )

Still fucking awake ehhhhhhhhhhhhh gonna go watch Big Trouble in Little Chine, I love this movie its on right now :)

My heart is bleeding, I reach out for you in the night but your not there, I try to tell you and you won't listen, I pull you close and you just push me away, nothing can express the way I feel, you don't know me as you think you do, you pretend to listen but can't hear what I say, the smile is a show to keep you here with me, why oh why won't you ( Read more... )

DAY FOUR IS ABOUT TO COME AROUND NO SLEEEEEEPPPPP!!!!!WHHHHYYYYY!!!!! Ok its not the lack of sleep that kills me its the fact I ran out of cigarettes today :(