going through old journals. found old poems ( Read more... )

i want to wake up right now. i am so sick of where i've let myself off too. so much time. so much fucking time i think i have so much of because of a damn horoscope in a stupid book at powell's, like it's real? i am so stupid. i am so stupid and yet i am still alive meaning, i am not the ultimate fool. i've made it 25 years as an idiot and now i am ( Read more... )

Amanda Mariah Johnson ( Read more... )

O Rose thou art sick ( Read more... )

okay. what am i doing right now. oh yes look up tickets to chicago for thanksgiving. then get my unemployment filed. then groceries. what i really want is to go to sauvie island and walk around a pumkin patch, and swing little children by their little hands.
i want to be in the golden sunset in black and white.

i'm in my apartment. trapped it seems, but isn't true. i'm painting, a medium scale picture of a giant mouse in a train hat grinning at his caught creature, a rodent type cartoon with giant eyes and giant labia, suspended by the nape of his neck ( Read more... )

i am in the pcc library pretending to be kelsey, i just looked out the window and it's started to rain, so i guess it's a good thing i came here to school with my friend than staying at the fresh pot and walking home in a downpour. but then what really would have happened if i had stayed there? i would have run into a different friend or few and ( Read more... )

last night while i was sleeping i had a nightmare about a serial killer in my house, outside my room and hovering around my bed and i woke up in my dream and my neck was paralized looking straight up and i walked across the room unable to look around me or defend myself. i saw the murderer kill other girls with kitchen utensils and it scared the ( Read more... )

i have no idea how to make a resume. it is so intimidating. i need to own up right now and create the best resume ever. i am going to get a job TODAY!

there are little girls running around all over the place in leotards and i love them. i love leotards, unitards, onesies!

interesting sandwich number one:
2 slices fresh-made cinnamon toast
bucheron cheese
sliced white mushrooms
red seedless grapes (halved)
red leaf lettuce
honey mustard sauce

YUMMY!