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i am in the pcc library pretending to be kelsey, i just looked out the window and it's started to rain, so i guess it's a good thing i came here to school with my friend than staying at the fresh pot and walking home in a downpour. but then what really would have happened if i had stayed there? i would have run into a different friend or few and let the day take me? i did that anyway. i didn't expect to be in the pcc library today, that's for sure. (not that it's so darned exciting) but i don't expect anything. i just hope that people will pull me up by my ankles when i need some air.
right now i'm breathing deep. last night whilst i fell asleep my body paralyzed. the cats on my back and the wind at my window blowing hard and strong as i fell deeper away from my conscious reality. my eyes sinking far into my head leaving a small window with which to see. my arms holding eachother down, forcing me still. i could groan. that was all. i dreampt paul came by my open door and was so afraid he wanted to shut it with me helplessly ridden by witches. i begged him not to he said he had to. i was scaring him. i forced my body out of bed and to him, my eyes still burried, through clenched teeth i said i'm paralyzed, he said i don't think ok women get sleep paralysis. then i woke up. in my bed. i got up. i was fine. i was afraid. i HATE SLEEP PARALYSIS. i think it's contageous.
right now i'm breathing deep. last night whilst i fell asleep my body paralyzed. the cats on my back and the wind at my window blowing hard and strong as i fell deeper away from my conscious reality. my eyes sinking far into my head leaving a small window with which to see. my arms holding eachother down, forcing me still. i could groan. that was all. i dreampt paul came by my open door and was so afraid he wanted to shut it with me helplessly ridden by witches. i begged him not to he said he had to. i was scaring him. i forced my body out of bed and to him, my eyes still burried, through clenched teeth i said i'm paralyzed, he said i don't think ok women get sleep paralysis. then i woke up. in my bed. i got up. i was fine. i was afraid. i HATE SLEEP PARALYSIS. i think it's contageous.