As is always the case, happiness only lasts for so long. My OCD is back full force. I was supposed to get another intravenous Anafranil treatment in June. My doctor suggested another treatment almost immediately upon seeing me in June. Since I'm no longer a minor and my doctor is a child psychiatrist, I cannot be admitted into the ward I have ( Read more... )

Perhaps I'll start updating this thing again. I am sleeping less, and thusly have more time to write. I've been failing to keep in contact with those I care about, partly out of apathy and partly because I am ashamed--I'm not progressing, not succeeding, not really doing anything with my life. So, I suppose on these late nights when I am overcome ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been literally a year since I updated this thing. Hmmm, let's see here, what are the highlights of the past year ( Read more... )

Unfortunately, I have to take an extra year to finish school because of my absences and hospitalizations. Being crazy keeps you a lot busier than one would expect ( Read more... )

Damn, it's been awhile. Much has happened. I shall try to fill in the blanks. I did end up going to the gay pride parade with Alex and Tyler....in fact, we marched in the parade....huzzah! I'll write out the full experience in another entry when I have the time ( Read more... )

Hm. For months I have been planning to go to the Edmonton Gay Pride Parade. I had invited Alex and Tyler to come with me to the parade, and they agreed to it. I've been trying to coax Alex into some suitably fruity attire (ie: giant fairy wings and tons of glitter)...and of course, I would wear my matching pair of giant fairy wings, lest he feel ( Read more... )

As always, I have failed miserably. I received a call at 8:00 am the day after my interview. The woman who had interviewed me curtly told me that I had not been chosen, and she wished me luck in a vague, I-say-this-to-all-my-rejects tone. I hung up the phone and sighed with deep sadness. I laid on my couch tightly cocooned in my blanket until I ( Read more... )

It's about 3:30 am, and my eyes will not close. I usually get to sleep around 5:00 or 6:00 in the morning. An hour of sleep only burns 54 calories, whereas sitting at my computer typing for an hour burns 80 calories. Hell, I could just lie on my couch staring at the ceiling, and I'd still burn more calories than if I were sleeping. I would love to ( Read more... )

Written on May 4th, 2004 at 10:15 am ( Read more... )

I was supposed to see Dr.Parsons yesterday, but ended up having to babysit my sister instead. Now I can't make another appointment with him until next month, which is terribly unfortunate ( Read more... )