so i have been having a tuff time and dicided for my own sake i would go back to writting my thoughts in my journal agian ( Read more... )

me mad my dad just finished watching that movie and i dont know if you have read teh book or seen the movie but it is sopposed to be a 1940's version of kain and able. around hte middle of hte movie my dad made a referance to me as Kain. i guess it is true in a way i am highly differnet from my brother he was perfict to my father and it was my ( Read more... )

all those who oppose me will be destroyed. i will becoem suprem adn i thier will be peace. order through power. no one will be out of line. people will be kind and forgiving and they will treat all others with repsect or they will be beaten. all will bow to my will one day. i will be able to unleash the ultimate power i will have found the way to ( Read more... )

so it begins i guess with my life and it will end the same in turn. i go no where adn i gain nothing but i would give it all for peace and happyness and love. the lonley feeling i have is like a empty hunger taht always pains me. i am so alone and i cant ever fix that. i am alone even in a staduom full of people. my emptyness drags me down. people ( Read more... )

yeah so i spent my birthday sick i came home from school and i am sick again today. this means i probibly wont get to play tomuch in our first football game so i get to drive down thier 4 hours on a bus for nothing yeah. but at lesast i got some really good gifts from my parents for my birthdsay. i am really tired and my whole body hurts. darn ( Read more... )

i am tired form football but feeling good. thigns are school anf with football have never been harder but i am doing pretty good. i feel content with things but i have a longing for things to be better. i guess i am not really content. i just have a headache is it bad to wish i didnt have that? no sooner did i writ that my dad came in with a wach ( Read more... )

has anyone ever told you the more you give the more you get? well they said that out of contexted because that isnt true with other people only wiht yourslef. if you gave everything yo uhad to some one it doenst stop them from being who they are or anything it just changes how they MIGHT act efasis on might. the only person that if you give to oyu ( Read more... )

well school has started and things have been alot harder but allittle better at home. not to say i trust it becaue i know it wond stay but its better than fighting.schools tuff my schedual was all messed upp and some one esle has teh same locker i payed for and they gave me teh wrong books adn football is incredibly hard and tireing. and besieds ( Read more... )

well school has started and i am being weened of teh medicine of death. but still i cant help but feel like i take one stpe forward and then a ton of raod blocks are thrown to trip me and i dodge a alot and then thier is just one to big and i stumble. i cant seem to handle such bad luck. i mean my schedual is all screwd up and i hae been tring ot ( Read more... )

if anyone who reads this happens to be an assasin i would pay you good money for my own hit.