My life is changing so rapidly that I can't see straight. I wave my hand in front of my face and the image seems grotesque and distorted. This hand was once so intricately carved with lines of yesteryear, and now I only see them when I make an attempt to. Where have they gone? These memories were a part of me, and still are, yet they have turned ( Read more... )

I'm in a fog. A pleasant one. It is questionable whether this feeling could be considered contentment or the state of being numb.

Third week of school and I've barely blinked an eye.  Is this what the rest of life will be like? Time passes exponentially as we age, and I'm not prepared for my elder years.

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I believe I'm in denial. I'm aware of what I'm denying, so perhaps it can't be qualified as denial after all. All I really know is that in a year, my life will be turned completely upside down and I will not be able to stop it from happening.  As I type this, I realize how little I actually ponder upon the finality of it all--my last fragment of ( Read more... )

I have no tolerance for ignorance.  I never stopped to think of why I despised the thing so much until I contemplated the argument that broke out tonight amongst my family.  The root of it, I am certain, is my father turning a blind eye to his problems that he in turn thrusts upon us.  He must have low self-esteem, as I have inherited the trait ( Read more... )

Two and a half year have gone by.  In the gap between 14 and 17 I would have expected to transform more, maybe into what I have always wanted to be.  I haven't transformed, but I have learned so much about myself that I am often taken aback by the self revelation ( Read more... )

I haven't written in this journal in two and a half years; I guarantee that everyone that once read this journal long ago surrendered themselves to Myspace and have also forgotten about the site.  It's comforting to know that I may be able to come back here and write, without worrying about the same drama that was always attached to writing what I ( Read more... )

Wow...I haven't updated in forever^%*&%^*&^%*%^ which is not cool I guess ( Read more... )

This weekend was satisfactory, for the most part. On thursday I stayed home like a loser, I had nothing to do! The single life can suck ( Read more... )

this is retarded...but I was bored ( Read more... )