it dawned on me you might be broken
Characters: headedforhope and heartovertime
Date: A short while after the end of the apparitions event.
Summary: Homura comes to talk with Mami about timelines and other fun things. And by "fun" I mean "earth-shattering".
Warnings: Massive spoilers for Madoka Magica, depression.
[The warped, hateful ghosts are gone. The Gardens are restored. But Mami hasn't healed.
She bounced back after the Labyrinth. She stood up again after the robots. The cloud of darkness that had settled around her during those times of trial broke, and Mami found the strength to patch her facade together. She was fine, just fine. But now it feels like her very knees have been shattered and Mami can't even imagine getting up again. An old wound has been laid bare and it cut the girl to her very core; after all, she likely never would have become a magical girl if it hadn't been for the car crash that killed her parents. Her very existence as a puella magi is inexorably tied to that experience, and thus to her survivor's guilt and incorrect sense of self-blame.
To have those deeply buried and deeply negative feelings vindicated, if just by an impersonating phantom....it was too much. She's been hit too hard. Now there's nothing left but the deep ache of misery and a needling sense of unease. Mami sits in her room at the inn where she's been staying and dully regards her (still uncorrupted) Soul Gem. She's digested the words Homura blurted out so desperately in her attempt to save Mami from despair, and cannot help but believe them.
Yet that only begs a very obvious question: what else is she ignorant of?]
Date: A short while after the end of the apparitions event.
Summary: Homura comes to talk with Mami about timelines and other fun things. And by "fun" I mean "earth-shattering".
Warnings: Massive spoilers for Madoka Magica, depression.
[The warped, hateful ghosts are gone. The Gardens are restored. But Mami hasn't healed.
She bounced back after the Labyrinth. She stood up again after the robots. The cloud of darkness that had settled around her during those times of trial broke, and Mami found the strength to patch her facade together. She was fine, just fine. But now it feels like her very knees have been shattered and Mami can't even imagine getting up again. An old wound has been laid bare and it cut the girl to her very core; after all, she likely never would have become a magical girl if it hadn't been for the car crash that killed her parents. Her very existence as a puella magi is inexorably tied to that experience, and thus to her survivor's guilt and incorrect sense of self-blame.
To have those deeply buried and deeply negative feelings vindicated, if just by an impersonating phantom....it was too much. She's been hit too hard. Now there's nothing left but the deep ache of misery and a needling sense of unease. Mami sits in her room at the inn where she's been staying and dully regards her (still uncorrupted) Soul Gem. She's digested the words Homura blurted out so desperately in her attempt to save Mami from despair, and cannot help but believe them.
Yet that only begs a very obvious question: what else is she ignorant of?]