last night i went over to evan's and watched him and ezra beat some video game.. i can't remember the name. i returned bottles yesterday and made $8. so i went and got some taco bell to celebrate lol. mike got jumped the other night in nyc and left unconsious outside his parents apartment. looks like he's enjoying his time there ( Read more... )

This morning I witnessed the sunrise ( Read more... )

so this whole thing with mike has gotten completely out of controll. i origionally left so we could have our own space to work on issues yet still date and try to work things out. by no means did i want him completely out of my life. one of the biggest issues in our relationship was his controlling mother. once she found out that i had moved out ( Read more... )

last night i went out with jen, her bf, and his friend to 80's night at the asylum. it was frightening. i don't think i've seen so many ugly people in all my life. it was good to get out of the house. i've been having awful mood swings from being content, to angry, to crying hysterically. i just want out of this funk.

yesterday was tough. i was really emotional about everything. i'm finding out more and more that mike is nowhere near the person i thought he was. it disgusts me and hurts to know he never really gave a shit about me. all he cares about is money and boning coked out rich chicks. now i'm just fucking pissed. i have to see him this weekend to give ( Read more... )

i moved into my new apartment this weekend. it's alot nicer than i thought it was going to be. i'm settling in and almost everything is unpacked. if feel like a huge weight has been lifted off now that i'm out. even though i was done with the relationship the way it was going it's still tough trying to deal with everything that has happened. i know ( Read more... )

I found an apartment last night. I put in a deposit and my application. They said it might be hard since I don't have much rental history. I've rented three fucking places. We'll see how it goes ( Read more... )

i hate how everytime mike and i have a blow out he's nicer than ever after. we've been getting along great. i know it won't last though. it never does. it just makes things much more confusing. i'm looking at apartments today. there's three i'm looking at with port property after work and one with an independent landlord. the last one looks really ( Read more... )

p.s. on a happy note ... I have spondalytis

so my christmas was good, but mike and i fought that night and the night after. it made me realize that no matter what, we can't get along. i got back from winslow last night and talked to mike about everything. right now i'm looking for a new apartment. it sucks cause i finally found a place that felt like home and in a good area. now i need to ( Read more... )