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Life drawing
I'm thinking of taking a life drawing class again. If that isn't the way back into my passion I don't know what is
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Gaping hole
The subject of this post is what I have in my heart. I feel so terribly lost that I'm without the one I love, and don't have the chance currently to get him back. I hope one day he feels this way too. Well not the hurt and sadness part, but the wanting to be together part. We were so perfect and somehow let that slip away because of daily life. It' ( Read more... ) -
It's been a week now
one full week of jon gone from my life. I guess i am doing better. but that is because he told me to give up any hope of being together. the finality of that statement is helping me as bleak as that sounds because i know not to fill my days with wonderful thoughts about us. i now have to fill my days with thoughts of me. i sort of don't know where ( Read more... ) -
Couldn't sleep last night
I barely slept last night and am getting anxious about missing jon online. Went to the dentist at 9am. I have a lot of dental work to do. Made me cry. Too many bad things going on to handle this shit that has the possibility of making things much worse. Forget possibilities of travel. Gotta take care of my body before heartache I guess
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Day 2 after jon leaves the country
Well, first night alone and I slept a whole 4.5 hours, ate nothing yesterday and just feel like a complete madwoman. I can't help but feel that I want another chance to make it work but it may not ever happen. Maybe I won't want that after time passes but something about jon was right for me. I think his plane lands in a few hours in Thailand. ( Read more... ) -
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Wow... Read a private post I posted end of 2009 and it's almost exactly what is going on in my life today. Not sure what to think about that. Today is monumental. Jon will be leaving tomorrow for travels of indefinite amount of time. I've cried almost every day fir a week after I decided to give up my I don't give a fuck attitude I've had for over ( Read more... ) -
new moon
getting ready to JUMP into a relationship hurdle again. I feel very good about it, nervous in a very good way. We are moving in together...maybe not right away but it is going to happen. i'm excited. -
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I avoided meeting the father tonight. I'm not sure why I'm so weird about meeting parents. I think it's because I'm afraid they will trap me in an awkward conversation spot. Got the house to myself, doing chores and then the boy is heading over....yay. -
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Jon spent the night again the other night. Mike, Pockets, Jon & I had a Tuesday night drink night. We made tacos and sat around the table and laughed. It was fun. My site is getting nearer to completion thank goodness and I don't have one scheduled for next month. I'm liking all my situations currently ( Read more... )