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purrfectionist

Resolution

Jan 05, 2016 14:42

I figure it is time to make a resolution that might be easier to stick to. I want to come back to journaling and become a regular, once again, on LJ. I miss it. And it's so much more satisfying reading old LJ entries than old Facebook entries ( Read more... )

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feria73 January 5 2016, 23:26:23 UTC

react....or not react...I would've reacted badly if Ed would've smashed a honey biscuit in my face! You handled it well girlfriend! Why is it funny? I guess relationships are taking the good with the bad...Ed's drinking versus how much he does for me and for others....he broke the freaking toilet, so he spent the time to replace it just because he was too stoopid NOT to drink 2 bottles of champagne...it's cheaper to keep her....yep...right now.

You have grown up so much and I'm so proud of you!

**smooches** Wishing you a wonderful birthing experience and the most blessed 2016!

purrfectionist January 6 2016, 03:27:15 UTC

Thanks! I really started learning a lot about myself and relationships toward the end of things with J. It's like I woke up to the fact that I was justifying my actions with every wrongdoing Norm committed. And that isn't right. Like you said, we have to take the bad with the good. And I know there are bad things Norm has to take with the good in me as well! Ed kind of reminds me of Norm. He's just a loveable big kid and he probably drives you crazy. I get it! Norm is the same way. Everyone loves him and I get to trail after him and clean up all the time. Lol

Thanks for the well wishes for the birthing experience. You'll be seeing/hearing about it soon! I hope REALLY soon! :)

Blessings to you!

bassnote January 7 2016, 22:29:56 UTC

See, if I was your dad and he'd done that, I'd have first smashed one in his face then invited him out back for a proper chat. Childish of me? Sure. But I'd also have gotten his attention but good followed by a sincere apology. You handled it better than I would have.

Did you later tell him how it made you feel or he ever apologize for it, especially in front of his sons? They learn.

purrfectionist January 8 2016, 01:01:39 UTC

He apologized for getting it in my hair and eyelashes. He said he mainly just was going for my cheek. An odd statement, but at least it was an apology of some sort. I spent the rest of the day with my eyelashes sticking together every time I blinked. So whenever I made a comment about it he'd say "Oh geez you're still stuck on that ( ... )

bassnote January 8 2016, 03:02:36 UTC

In my eyes he was WAY out of line on that one. The only way he'll come around is when he realizes it. Maybe I'm just too protective?

purrfectionist January 8 2016, 17:33:35 UTC

I appreciate you being protective. And, wrong as it may be, you've been one to validate my feelings through the years. Sometimes I just need to hear that I'm not crazy. Because everyone loves Norm. Just absolutely loves him. We are both fun, but he is the instigator, I'm the sweetheart. Everyone looks to him for excitement and energy and I never hear anything negative. And I get to trail after him and be the grown up most times. It's hard and sometimes I just want a pat on the back and some understanding!

His family has a lot of pride in who they are. I don't know if there will ever be any coming around.

All I can do is love him through it. If he can love me through what I did and never hold it over me, shouldn't I offer up the same?

one_vice January 8 2016, 01:30:54 UTC

I hope you do post on here more often! I'm thinking about throwing up a post as well. I enjoyed reading this and I'm happy to see that things seem to be going well for you! You're going to love having a little girl. :) Can't wait to see that announcement!

purrfectionist January 8 2016, 17:37:22 UTC

You should most definitely put up a post. I love reading your journal as well, and I miss your depth. Every now and then you put a gem up on Facebook and make yourself vulnerable and I love that about you. Your journey over the last few years has been very intriguing and heart wrenching. And you are a fantastic mom. And also, it speaks volumes to me how you and Jake are able to maintain such a civil relationship.

Things are going pretty well. I'm overwhelmed, but who isn't for various reasons these days? I'm looking forward to having this baby and getting the delivery part over with! I hate the anticipation and apprehension of it more than anything! You'll be seeing the announcement soon! :)

evildmguy January 10 2016, 18:56:18 UTC

Wow ( ... )

purrfectionist January 11 2016, 21:27:07 UTC

What worries me most is what the boys are going to take from their relationship with their dad. And now, our daughter as well. In most ways, Norm is an awesome father. He's the disciplinarian. He teaches them respect, first and foremost. And he does it in a way that makes them listen. I have admiration for that, as I am the softy. And it's hard for me to get them to listen sometimes. I am the one who teaches them empathy and humility. When it comes down to it, we make a good team. And we get compliments on the boys a lot. I just fear that they're going to grow up thinking it's ok to drink as much as their dad does and that they're going to grow up expecting their wife to take on most responsibility in the relationship. Because what they see him do most every night when he gets home is sit in front of his computer or TV and drink alcohol. But they LOVE him because, despite the occasional barking order to leave him along, he's fun. He keeps a Nerf gun by his desk and shoots them when they come in. Stuff like that. Meanwhile I'm running ( ... )