Resolution

[purrfectionist]

I figure it is time to make a resolution that might be easier to stick to. I want to come back to journaling and become a regular, once again, on LJ. I miss it. And it's so much more satisfying reading old LJ entries than old Facebook entries

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[purrfectionist]

He apologized for getting it in my hair and eyelashes. He said he mainly just was going for my cheek. An odd statement, but at least it was an apology of some sort. I spent the rest of the day with my eyelashes sticking together every time I blinked. So whenever I made a comment about it he'd say "Oh geez you're still stuck on that?"

It's tough. You've seen the struggle. You've seen it for years. And I honestly can't tell if I'm just over-sensitive like my mom and her mom were (my mom would literally, on occasion, yell out "everyone pisses all over me!" and lock herself in the bathroom some nights. I've never taken it that far).....or if Norm IS a horse's ass.....or a combination of the two.

I suppose I need to heed my own advice and ask myself if I'm praying about it as much as I'm talking about it. I just want Norm to snap out of it and wake up one day as a new man. A Christ following guy who wants to be the best role model he can for our kids. And who knows, maybe that's what God's plan is in us having this little girl. Time will tell!

[bassnote]

In my eyes he was WAY out of line on that one. The only way he'll come around is when he realizes it. Maybe I'm just too protective?

[purrfectionist]

I appreciate you being protective. And, wrong as it may be, you've been one to validate my feelings through the years. Sometimes I just need to hear that I'm not crazy. Because everyone loves Norm. Just absolutely loves him. We are both fun, but he is the instigator, I'm the sweetheart. Everyone looks to him for excitement and energy and I never hear anything negative. And I get to trail after him and be the grown up most times. It's hard and sometimes I just want a pat on the back and some understanding!

His family has a lot of pride in who they are. I don't know if there will ever be any coming around.

All I can do is love him through it. If he can love me through what I did and never hold it over me, shouldn't I offer up the same?