urghhh fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou.

Urgh.
I've had two days off.
TWO.
And i'm stressing about the fact i'm not doing any work.
There is definitely an issue here.

Ughh.
I want to be in a situation where people don't have to know where I am or what i'm doing. And there is no awkwardness about anything.

Trying to waste half an hour is actually near damn impossible here.
Ten minutes have passed. Ten.
And in that time i've been to get a drink, wandered around, checked my emails, looked up fencing places, shortlisted things to do to get into Cambridge, checked my swipe record etc etc etc.
And to make things better, I have history next. 1 1/2 hours. Die.

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So i came home today and there was an envelope  in the post with my Dad's adress on it. Nothing unusual there. Upon closer inspection of the strange watermark symbol behind it, I was like "Ha! That looks like the Dharma initiative symbol". Oh wait, it was, words and everything.


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We met the rest of the St. Pauls crew today. Actual amazing.
Not expecting to really see anybody, then seeing everybody made for seriously giving up on being cool and composed and pretty much spazzing out.
Standing in the practically-dark with a group of people youve only ever seen photos of has to be one of the weirder times in life. I actually love ( Read more... )

I just made a postcard like an hour ago which was something along lines of wishing somebody would tell me they appreciated me.
My brother asked me the time a minute ago and the conversation went something as followed;

"Lucy."
"Yes?"
"Thank you for telling me the time"
"Why?"
"I really appreciate it"
"..why?"
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This weekend has been on the good side.
Last night my Mum had her fireworks thing, which was nice because I haven't seen alot of those family-friend type people in forever. In my mind, I expect Charlie to be at all of these such occasions, and seeing he blatantly won't be it's always back-of-my-mind disappointing. But anyway there were fireworks and ( Read more... )

Me and Jolene went to Nandos for about 3 hours last night, which was good.
I am feeling pretty urgh about everything. But when I put it into perspective I am being very brattish.
I am having temper fits daily because I have to write 2000 words. 
At least I can write 2000 words. Theoretically. On my lovely wireless laptop. It really does show how ( Read more... )

Ok, so, an entry.
Alot has been happening lately really. It really does feel like somebody just put their foot down on the accelerator of LIFE. Beautiful analogy.
Anyway, so I have three days to do this stupid English coursework, it being 25% of the grade. This is insanity.
I've just spent a few days with my Dad's side of the family. I have not ( Read more... )