you said everything will be okie...then why isn't it? why do i feel so shitty all the time?

i have no money and really need some...i feel so helpless and i don't know what to do...someone want to give me a million?

so i am back from the motherland...i had an amazing time! most of it was spent on the beaches of the republic of crimea...the black sea and the sea of azow...i got super tan and ate nothing but fruits and veggies so i lost some weight too...we spent 10 days on the beaches and took an excursion to the waterfalls and some mountain lake and it was ( Read more... )

it has been quite some time...every time i want to update i just never get around to it...you have no idea how many times i went to the page and wrote a subject and everything and just never got around to actually writing anything lol...anyway ( Read more... )

yesterday at work was the "Summer Family Day" party for everyone...there was a magician and 2 caricaturists and a giant snake and a tarot card reader and a "make your own flip flops" activity and video games and some other stuff and TONS of food...i got a tarot card reading since he was sitting right outside my room and i walked out and he just got ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKI!!!

i will call you this weekend cause we definitely need to go out and celebrate :) birthday drinks and all lol...i miss you <3

Me + Genevieve + THE FAINT @ Terminal 5 on 8/18 = FUCKIN AMAZING!!!

i cannot wait until this weekend! it has been a while since we had a long weekend so it will be nice...maybe i will actually catch up on some sleep and maybe it will be nice enough to do something too :) and then sunday for vicki's bday too :)

mark bought me the john cena plush doll ( Read more... )

i just had a very successful shopping trip during lunch...$100 for 3 dresses, 2 shirts and a pair of pants!!! AND i was approved for the store credit card and that means my credit may finally be rising from the shitter yay! I may go back manana to buy some other stuff :)

tonight is the Mets game with mark...we're gonna get to be on the field for the ( Read more... )

i wish people were able to see things that i can see...i wish my "friends" were able to step over themselves and have an adult conversation with me...instead of talking to me through the computer...i wish people considered my feelings as much as i consider everyone else...how come i don't matter to anyone? how come my feelings and my happiness and ( Read more... )

this morning i ran into jose on the train again...due to the fact that i was an hour late for work and he just goes in late always...i love our random conversations...and his spontaneous decisions...his latest...he wants to go to the ukraine with me in july...we shall see...but that would be fun :)

this week has been spent doing a lot of sleeping ( Read more... )

 so our begging and "putting our foot down" did not amount to much...the testing HAD to be done within these 2 weeks so needless to say i am pissed...been working from like 7am most days staying till like 8pm or 9pm...taking car service everywhere...am exhausted...next week more of the same plus the staff appreciation crap on top of it...oh well at ( Read more... )