since no one reads livejournal anymore, i figured id post ( Read more... )

Can somebody save me ( Read more... )

I'm just hurting so bad, i've never felt this way before. How can someone say they love you and the walk away, because of their own fears and insecurities ( Read more... )

i move in four days.

Abby and i will find out tuesday if we get this apt. It's in riverdale which has anything and everything i could ever ever ever ever ever want. It has a huge public park, fast food (ew but i was excited bc riverdale had the largest mcdonalds playplace in all of nyc, maybe i'll play in it with kids i nanny?? or something) The public park has a ( Read more... )

so today has been pretty good luck. i *think* i got the internship i applied for. i was asked for an interview for a babysitting/nanny position in nyc, which i have to reschedule. abby might have found our perfect apt, and someone called to see my car, theyre really interested ( Read more... )

I'm realizing more and more that no one wants to hold your hand, help you out or give you a round of applause. What people want is to step on you toes, make you cry and tell you you're not going to make it. No one wants you to live your dreams, to be who you want to be or stick with you through the ups and downs. no one can be supportive or ( Read more... )

so far on my list of things to do, i have: moved to donnas, packed and cleaned my apt (though have some unpacking to do...) purchased fabric, finished fit essay and sent transcripts, started sketching, started the apartment hunt ( Read more... )

i had a strange change of mood this week. there really isnt any one defining moment of the change. but i feel a bit better, maybe happier, more secure and confident in things. but nothings changed, its really just me. weird ( Read more... )

so life basically sucks. i feel like my existence is only to show me how shitty things are, without anything really going wrong. things aren't what they seem, feelings change, people continually prove to you how stupid they are, and how unimportant you really are in the scheme of things. and yet, you settle, because you limit yourself to what seems ( Read more... )