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I hate getting involved with people, going deeper than the superficial interaction that protects you from all the stupid bullshit you'd think shouldnt and wouldnt be there. I hate needing people, the stupid human desire to connect with others, the desire for intimacy, sense of belonging. Im never happy. When Im alone I crave people and long for ( Read more... ) -
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I havent heard from him all day. I feel the whole ignoring me situation happening all over again. Wtf? Im going to rip him a new one if he pulls another episode like that again.
I need a whole army of corgi puppies to ambush me and make me feel better with their unending cuteness. Maybe that'll make me unsad. -
A stranger wanders through these halls
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So I experienced the first car crash of my life on Thursday, which hopefully will be my last one, or at least for a very long time! Im fine, but unfortunately cant say the same for my car. Thankfully, apparently Jeeps are very well made because even though I was hit both in the front and back, it only sustained superficial damage and the interior ( Read more... ) -
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You know how in movies, they use a calendar with its pages being ripped away to signify the passing of time? Thats how Im feeling about my life right at this moment. Like months pass by in the matter of seconds. I dont feel like Im adequately enjoying or living life fully because things just seem to fly by. Its already the third month of 2010. wtf ( Read more... ) -
Prozac.
* Ethan finally wrote me back after all. He told me I was acting crazy again and that he couldnt handle it. That he only wanted to end things with me as friends because I was a great person. I read it, got insanely pissed that he called me crazy, and wrote back: "Ok. Thanks for replying. Take care Ethan ( Read more... ) -
Just random
* I dont know if Im the only one who gets these feelings, but occasionally, I'll feel like Im just tired of existing. Like breathing and thinking and generally just BEING is overrated. Im having one of those moments now ( Read more... ) -
*head-desk*
Ethan messaged me on monday through facebook. After five months of not hearing from him. After finally getting to the point where I dont think about him everday, even if he does pop into mind every once in a while. He stated that he was sorry for the way that things had ended, and how horrible it felt to have me just not be there in his life like ( Read more... ) -
The Weekend
I never know how to start these things, these entries, in a creative way. Or in a way I dont feel like I start every entry the same exact way. I always feel like I start my entries with a " So.. today I" or " So, This is" ... I obviously dont like that. I dont know, Im weird you guys, dont pay attention to me ( Read more... )
