Its been a while as always but things have been complicated. Nothing is ever the same when you lose something and as time goes by I keep losing friends, lovers, and feeling. Life is as complicated as living... I can't really take it anymore but I'm strong and I'll keep going even if I know that I'm gonna be alone for a long time, like if I haven' ( Read more... )

I'm so nervous cuz I didn't get the chance to talk with Ramses yersterday like I said I would. I need to talk with him soon, though, cuz if not things will get worse and if things get worse I may lose my oportunity to be his g/f. He better be worrth all the trouble I am going through. I've been through hell lately thinking about the ( Read more... )

Here's the thing. Ramses and I like each other but he says he can't be with me cuz his brother had or has feelings for me and he says that in hispanic culture you are not allowed to date anyone ur sibling liked or likes even if u know they never did anything. I don't think that matters, epspecially if Raynier, his brother, is giving him ( Read more... )

I just needed somewhere to think out of thoughts besides hi5 and my space. The problem with those is that the guy I like is on them and he's even my "friend" on hi5. He's so sweet and I've liked him for like seven or eigth months now. We're pretty close and we go to the same chruch. We talk all the time on hi5 and he cares so much about me and ( Read more... )

I've been busy lately. I haven't written in a while. There's so much guy drama. Its like all types of guys are liking me but I can't seem to find the right one. I'm so frustated! I just wish mine would come and show himself cause guys are so complicated!!!!!!!!!

Things have been crazy. Guy drama as always has filled my head. Life is crazy and I wish that it weren't. There's this guy and he's from church and he really likes me and won't take a hint. I just feel so pressured and I can't breathe. I hate guys like that. I do like this other kid in school but he likes someone else and he doesn't see me for me. ( Read more... )

I haven't been able to concentrate in Math lately because of Jeff but I hope I'll get over it. lol

There's this guy in my fourth hour named Jeff and like he's Columbian. He's tan with green eyes and he plays soccer, one of my favorite sports since my ex b/f introduced it to me! lol He's a 10th grader and he's a real flirt but yesterday he goes to me, did you know that your first hour class is right next to mine and I was like no. Then today my ( Read more... )

Brandon, your the only one who reads my entries nowadays. Everyone else is busy it seems. Things have been crazy as always and I kinda wish that I had someone by side at times although I have pretty much gotten use tothe idea of being alone and not having anyone not even a best friend to tell things to. I just wanted to write that I have had some ( Read more... )

I know I haven't updated in a while and this message is for Brandon, who said he'd be waiting for me to update, so here it goes! I 've been crazy lately. I 've done things I never thought that I would do, like date my sister's ex! I know it sounds bad but it all happened so quick and she introduced us and it was like like at first hear. Meaning, ( Read more... )