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I feel off kilter with my current location. I think I should move as soon as I can, which could be some months. Lately I've found inspiration from extended periods of meditation and visualization. I'm incredibly lonely and not ashamed to say it. I think loneliness is important sometimes and perhaps deep down everyone is lonely ( Read more... ) -
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Its strange how change can make one feel. My life is completely different than it was a few weeks ago and yet it feels kind of like it's always been like this. So far there hasn't been much to do really. But I'm broke and such also. Don't get paid for another three weeks. My co-workers are interesting. Ravi is very nice and kind and kind of keeps ( Read more... ) -
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the sun shines white these days.
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what good things gonna happen?
Yesterday I saw a little green tinyhouse right on the river in New Albany with my pal Mr Cook. Wish I could live there. Wish i could. Last night I felt really unwanted at my house. My roommate's husband said, "Is she gonna sleep on the couch? Why?" When they had turned off the airconditioning and it was 300 degrees up in the attic... I hadn't been ( Read more... ) -
CRANK IT UP, 2....BLAHBLAHBLAH
(before anyone reads this: I have no problem with nudity. It there is purpose and it isn't objectifying anyone, a lot of my favorite films have nudity. I have no problem with certain kinds of violence or shocking content. Some of my current likings include Eastern Promises, 21 Grams, etc. I have no problem with graphic content.)
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tapestry of weekend jocundity
Its a good day. I woke up at 4:30 and saw the morning. At work, I've finished a lot of designs I needed to early and my purse smells beautiful due to the Indian Ayurvedic soap and bottle of oil which live within it. Photos of sharks line my cubicle and I'm listening to wonderful sounds on Pandora and drinking my vice ( Read more... ) -
frustration. winter doldrums.
after an unfortunate bout of pneumonia, i find myself stuck at home for want of funds. i have some money, but it's so awfully wrought it's difficult to imagine spending it. i feel like screaming. no one wants to read this bitching but it helps me to write it so here it is. i feel so adolescent. and i'm 23. remember in i <3 huckabees when Jason ( Read more... ) -
how are you
when someone asks, "how are you" i guess what they really want to hear is, "fine." having usually not discussed it when i was "not fine" i'm beginning to realize even my closest friends and the guy i'm dating really don't want to hear about it if i'm not. they only want the bubbling color child side of my personality. they're bored if i'm going to ( Read more... )
