ive remembered a few more of my dreams

2 nights ago i had a dream that bannon was cheating on me with Shawna...( a slut in bondurant ) and i found out and they were telling me all these unknown details that i didnt really even want to know. he openly admitted to it...and i would cry..woke up crying...or felt as if i was awake...but i was still ( Read more... )

I know i havnt updated lately ... but something weird has been goin on ... for about a week and a half ive been having NightMares EVERY single night...and i dont know why.. or what it means.. but i never have normal dreams... in my dreams i see people dieing, dead babies... friends hating me... fights...being stuck in places and being branwashed ( Read more... )

Anyone know any jobs that are hireing??? i need a job really bad... i need to pay insurance for my car, help my boyfriend out becuase he's homeless, plus holidays are comin up, and i have to pay for gas money.... so if you work somewhere and they are hiring...or know of a place... please comment.

NEW MOM WANTED!!!... cuz mine fuckin SUCKS..

on a good note...me and bannon are doing better then EVER!!!... i love him much...

<3 <3

lindsey

Finally life is gettin better, Good news from Bannon. He isn't going to be locked up. (( at least not yet )) he is trying to transfer out of Mayer Hall and go to the YESS shelter..( better then mayer hall i guess) cuz once he gets there he can get phone calls and i can go and visit him :) and while he is in there he is gettin a job ( cuz they can ( Read more... )

Well something happened today that made me freaking HAPPY as fuck... i got two letters from Bannon FINALLY...they were written the day after, and ttwo days after he got sent away...so basically he wasnt ignoring me...the mail system just fucking SUCKS.

god it felt soooooooo good to hear from him...even in letters..he said everything i  could of ( Read more... )

I hate being on my fuckin period... Fuckin SUCKS.

AnyHoo... i have no life...what am i thinking..why am i even trying to update this?

Silly Lindsey

peace...

i dont know what to do... i have no inspiration to do anything, im sad just about everyday.  Bannon is all i can think about. What am i supposed to do? i cant take it... im breaking down really bad... i collasped yesterday and lay on the living room floor crying for about an hour.

i just dont know what to do with myself... and i dont know what to ( Read more... )

i know how long bannon is going to be locked up....

14 years

.... i cant move... i feel like im going to throw up....and i cant eat

Today has been hard, Bannon's been gone since Tuesday night... and im a TINY bit better, but not really. Just trying to get used to not having him around.

i went to school today.... no make up... in a bad mood, cried once... but didnt let no one see. I Love Bannon so fuckin much... im starting to miss the bannon i knew.... i miss him runnin around ( Read more... )