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Today has been hard, Bannon's been gone since Tuesday night... and im a TINY bit better, but not really. Just trying to get used to not having him around.
i went to school today.... no make up... in a bad mood, cried once... but didnt let no one see. I Love Bannon so fuckin much... im starting to miss the bannon i knew.... i miss him runnin around and being hyper and happy and saying weird fucked up shit that was TOTALLY out there.... i miss kissing him... even though he didnt ever use tounge lol...* we've never made out* he thinks make out kissin is gross. I miss walking around with him RIGHT when i get home from school... till the minute im supposed to be home.... i miss him teasing me... and saying "WHere's your boobs?">... while holding out his hand...and everytime id put his hand on my boob and he'd be like "yeaaaaaa!"....lol... he was very cute about it though...and it was just sommin he did everyday... i even miss him Farting on me :(
i came home.... and to TRY to get myself in a good mood, i went and hung out with all the M-VIlle people that i hung out with when i was always with bannon.... it was different...everyone knew bannon was gone....Ty hit on me, Jason hit on me, Chris hit on me, and Jeff hit on me... jeff tried to get me to go to his house w/ him and shit... but pfff... everyone knows how much i love bannon there though...and i told him i was waiting for him to get out...and of course all teh girls thought that was fuckin adorable....( CJ, and Emily ) my home girls :-p
i was crying up there... i got LOTS of hugs...and LOTS of free Cigerettes :) i started feelin a lil better, until i saw jon cry... ( bannon's brother ) ... he misses him just as much as i do...jon wants to be exactly like his brother...and thats kinda how he is growing up to be.
i just want it to be known, that i love bannon with all my heart, and there is no way in hell id break up with him just cuz he'll be locked up for 8 months..
i need to start thinking about sommin else, but he's everywhere...everyone talks about him still....his hat and pictures and things he made for me are hanging on my wall... i have TWO of his braceletes , a ring, and one of his necklaces he all gave to me to remeber him by, and thats all i got. But deep down i know he's thinkin about me too right now.... and i know he loves me just as much as i love him...and i cant wait to see him :(
I ~ LOVE ~ BANNON ~ BAXTER ~ BOTHWELL ~ JR.
:( *tears*