Working nights for so long now that I am naturally up at 3am with no problem.
Sucks though, I sleep while my families awake. I feel like I missing everything. I only work 3 days a week, but then Im asleep for allost 2. I want something more then this.

Feeling like I've completely lost myself in becoming a mom.
I used to be so much more together and interesting. Now I considered siting on my phone in my l

Trying to keep up with writing in my journals ( Read more... )

Lately i've been shutting down. Life has become so overwhelming. There's so many things that I have to think about, So many things that I have to worry about. So meny appointments that I have to book,and paperwork that I have to fill out, and laundry That needs to be done, rooms that need to be cleaned, and teeth That need to be brushed and a hair ( Read more... )

Life is rough, literally fighting the voices in my head telling me I'm shit.
Everyday I have to force myself out of bed. My children are the only reason I haven't given up.

So, here's an update of my life as it is today ( Read more... )

Dear Journal,
It is now the end of Summer 2023.
And boy have I been maxed out of kid chaos.
It's been real. This will be my 3rd summer with 3 kids. Absolute madness.
This weekend we're taking them somewhere cool, for the end of summer fun.
Either the splash pad or the Discovery playhouse.
The kids will love whatever we do.
It's been a slow summer. Lots of ( Read more... )

This job is driving to the point that I don't care which sucks cause I do and I want to be the best. But I come in every night and I'm working by myself. Also I'm on indeed and I never see them put up and job postings. So wtf.... it's literally to much for one person. My body is pushed to the limit, unless I put my foot down, not give a fuck and do ( Read more... )

Woke up this afternoon to my man bringing me warm homemade buttered bread, with a hot cup of coffee and my children covering me in hugs and kisses and telling me about their day. Some times I can't believe this is my life ( Read more... )

This week has been the craziest ( Read more... )