2 more months till moving day. Counting down the days.
Nervous and excited.
Joey and I are connecting so deeply in bed it's mind blowing. I can't even believe how good it is between us. Working on communicating better.

Started talking to my ex-husband again...

Found out Thanksgiving afternoon. That my long time best friend Kolleen Marhefka relapsed and OD'd ( Read more... )

Back to working nights because Bane is in preschool half days ( Read more... )

I honestly don't think I will be able to trust anyone after this is over.
It's going to be like this till atleast January.
Him hitting on me telling me he loves me, then a few days later I'm the worst person in the world.
I'm so shell shocked after each week of this mental torment that I become more and more distant. Then he wonders why I wont sleep ( Read more... )

Reading about how John and I used to be just kills me.
I can't even believe that we were so in love and happy before. Now the resentment is putrid.
It hurts.
I know I have to walk away. After everything....
Everyday I cry, usually because he's telling me how miserable I make him.
I honestly don't get what I am doing or not doing because he never wants ( Read more... )

So John borrowed my car to do some work. Car broke down. For the second time, he also lock himself out with the keys in the ignition.
So now not only do I need it towed in from Mashpee, I also need a locksmith...I have $66 to my name. Low on food and supplies.
Have worked 2 days this month total...
Rents due next week.
No idea how I am going to get ( Read more... )

Bane is starting Pre-k Monday.
I can't believe my baby boy is starting school.
It feels like just yesterday I brought him home from the hospital.
Sat on my air mattress crying because I had no idea what I was doing with a kid.
He's going to Teaticket, half days, Mrs. Jones will be his teacher. Nancy is his bus driver.
I am so scared and excited.
Im ( Read more... )

It's weird when you finally realize that you no longer love someone.

Why do I only attract these insanely depressed men who are not willing to grow or change in anyway to better their lives???? What is wrong with me that these are the kind of men I allow in my life ( Read more... )